way behind

Well we moved and Christmas has come and gone, I am going to try to get on here this week and update our live for everyone, with kids and husband home it makes it a tone harder to get much done, and well the fact that we just moved and then went to Clagry for christmas and then came back to Edmonton to finish with the old place to the start to unpack this place has been a HUGE thing for us all
Merry Christmas everyone!

Christmas Time

Well we headed down to Calgary just after the boys were done school....and wow it was a fun time! I always struggle being away from my home as I trully am a creature of my own habit and being in someone elses home is very hard after awhile.....Anyways Christmas was AMAZING, we got more than we very dreamed of and the kids got tons too, as I had told David's parents that I was not doing christmas this year with the move on the 15th how would I ever find everything for christmas, and so they blessed us and did everything for us really, we will and are eternally greatful too them as they saved our christmas, We trully are thankful for them being able to help us this year, it is grattidue I will never trully be able to show how I mean, but I am learning each day how to show feelings more and more!

Feild Trip for Joshua

today the kids in Joshua's room went to the Gymnastics club as a field trip they got to play on lots of different things and too get all there wiggles out Joshua really enjoyed this field trip as both David and I went as Sara was sick and didn't go to her apt and David was off from work on his 2 weeks off so it was fun as he was good with David for awhile and then he wanted to switch back......he is trully a funny child but we love him so dear! and David got to ride the Yellow bus with him and I drove there! much nicer I really do not like the yellow buses!

MOve Day

Well this was as fun as well any move..............no I have to say this was one of our worst ones as I just could not get it all together it was just so hard for me, as 1. I don't stay home nearly enough and 2. I can't pack really well my kids are around so this does not leave me alot of time! The ward was awsome and provided some babysitters for some afternoons but still 3 kids, a husband and a move in 3 weeks was alot, anyways about we got the keys to the new place about 10am and then we wait for shaw to come and hook up that part of life and then we went and got the truck and then it was time for the move to begin now, my plan was to have the kids gone before people got there, but I was behind on time, and this is one thing anyone who really knows me knows this drives me nuts but I am learning with my kids that I sometimes have to allow melt down time, but sadly those who were helping move forgot to think about that as they were pushing kids out of there way telling me they were in the way DUH really! and then they start freaking out because they don't understand where all there toys and stuff are going, this is HUGE thing for them so I took them to McDonalds with grandma and let them play for a bit, I know everything was not pack and there were people disappointed by that but life goes on.......and then besides that we soon learn that ooops we got to small of a truck from Uhaul, I know I ordered a bigger truck but they claim not oh well I say get the big stuff and we can move small stuff in the van! All done there off too the northside, we even get here a bit early nobody is here yet............call the men from the church no answer, call the bishop oh not home, try someone else oh wait he walks in 2 guys SWEET! they had it done in no time at all!

Now in all that don't get me wrong, the church is wonderful but sometimes the people need a little bit of work, but all and all we are soooooooooooooooooooooooooo greatful for all the help that we were able to get on both ends and we will trully miss Edmonton 6th/Greenfield Ward it was a great place to be and some amazing families in that ward, I am so greatful for the wonderful sisters that came to see me every month without a doubt, they trully made me understand what a true visiting teacher is, they trully became friends I couldn't wait to see, and I miss seeing them and knowing how they are doing........

David's off for Christmas

David is now off form tonight till Jan 7th it will be fun to have him home helping me out a bit, somedays I just want a break from life so we will see I hope to get unpacked before he goes back to work!

A shock for all!

Today we learned that Joshua is Legally blind in his right eye, there is still some sight but not enough to work with his left eye, so we are now having to patch his left eye as it is perfect to try and force the right to work again, not sure how I totally feel about all of this ask me after his next check up as this eye patching stuff it sooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun he is supppose to wear it 6-8 hrs a day so far we can get it for school which is about 2 1/2 hrs a day........oh the joys of kids! Oh but let me tell you it does explain some things about little Joshua

the light show

Again this year the school did the light show as a feild trip at the world of sience and after last year I said I would never do this again and here we are going again......I am a sucker for punishment....Dallin did alot better this year with it, but Joshua on the other hand was done about 15 mins in and it was about a 45min show not sure why they take kids that young too it but it is fun for some of the kids I just think it is overwhelmming for mine......but all and all the kids enjoyed it and now I am sick for the spinning and the ride of the yellow bus I must be getting old!

Sara to the Glenrose

Back we go for another visit to see how she is doing, and once again she is doing amazing the only thing the said was her speech is down a bit but otherwise up to pace or ahead of her age group and they say the speech is down as we do more sign langauge with the kids then normal people would but her understanding is totally there so they are not worried ya for us for this visit!

The most amazing night in a long time!

Well for our birthday I got Paul Brandt tickets......as I need something for me everyonce awhile, David's parents came up to help watch the kids as all our "normal" babysitters were not able to come :s but we are glad that they are so willing to help us in our times! I really really enjoyed this night, though it took me alot to actually relax as we really don't relax often enough....



Didn't even see the dust is still my fav. song of the year!

http://hif.cmcmusic.ca/go/hif/mp3/10339/D1_1/

This song still holds a very special place in my heart as our life is very much a open playing field that we need alot of faith and trust to know we are going in the right directions, The kids mean so much too us, and I know our Heavenly Father knew we could do this but let me tell you it is not as easy as it looks some days! but we LOVE it!

WE GET TOO MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

11:30 at night and the wait is well over......................We get to move into our bigger place, I am soooooooooooooooo excited and nervous and a whole ball of wax, now the worry of money and all that now begins :( i know it will all be good and I know this is suppose to be the right thing but GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH okay I am going to go to bed now and wake up more stressed out and now I need to pack my place up :P oh my last night of really partying for awhile :)

where or where are we

Okay those that read this often I have added some back posts just so you know :)


Well, I sit here, trying very very hard to know what is happening is in Heavenly Fathers hands, we are still waiting to hear back about the townhouse, it is really hard for me as I want this so bad and we need this so bad, but yet we still have no answer on wheather we can move in or not, and the hard part is Jodi (the resident manager) said once we are approved we could move in Dec 15ish WOW that would be quick but here we sit waiting, not knowing at all what is going on, all we know is that Heavenly Father knows what is best! We are both trying harder to take the small steps to know that we are doing what is right, Prayers and scriptures and attending church.....I know that I will go crazy with my worries till i know it is just me, someone has to worry David's thoughts are that whatever is right will happen, I still struggle really hard with that. i know each place we have been at there is a reason, and this ward we have been in is amazing but I know there is something to learn out there, I think being over there would help alot of things David would try a again to get that push for a new job, as neither of us like driving too much, and 30-45 depending on traffic is alot of driving.

Today I was told though I was approved for busing from where we are, yep now that we are thinking of moving to a area where we know there is no options for busing to Elmwood, but I know in my heart they need to be there till the end of this school year and then I can move them......i know that will be alot of driving but at that same point if I am happy that will make things that much better......And Monkia has said I can come voulenter and time I want :S hahahaha i that was funny, you are going to stay on this side of the city you can always come help us, which I love being there and helping so we will see maybe a couple times a month I will find a siter for Sara so that I can do that as I think it would be great fun :)

Not sure how many people have knowen that David and I have been going for family therapy/ counciling, I know often I try to make it look like we have it all together that we never fight and that dealing with our kids is easy as pie......WRONG we fight often, about alot of little things that trully aren't that important but at that moment they trully seem like they are.....now it is not all kids that make life fun and peachy as all get out but us too, we both have our things that drive each other nuts but I think we are being forced in a loving way to find that love again that for me at least was fading away, it is getting better there are days that I really don't want to be married or a mom, I just want the simple life again but reality is, if I was to marry someone else this kids are still going to be there, and so alot of the same problems are still going to be there so we might as well try to find the balance we need in life, I know we both love each other every much but we have had alot of trials through our 5yrs of marriage and 3 kids 4 and under..... I know it will come together this counlcer we are working with is great! I think he just needs to push a bit more but I know that will come with time and we need a balance and a live of order to make things work even more :)
one step at a time though!

whats for dinner.....

Well David and I could not decided what we wanted for dinner I had said eggs and he had said KD, I had taken a few mintues away because I was done from the kids all day, I am getting alot of headaces latley with all the talking going on, I feel like I have Triplets some days with all 3 learning to talk at the same time, we all want our kids to talk and when they start we all ask how do we make them stop, I am at the how do we make them stop please!

Anyways, we hear the boys laughing so we both go to the kitchen and find the boys both pointing to the frying pan, guess they both knew what they wanted!

they both had to help clean to get dinner ready, which made me laugh really hard and David get mad as it is always so much easier to do it yourself, but he really has kids that want in and too help......

even little Sara wanted in there she was getting mad, that the boys could help and not her!

the end result of cracking eggs, now for the milk and then to make scrabbled eggs..........oh the fun of kids they keep us laughing at least!

Dallin's home visit for his IPP

Today we met with Katy Dallin's teacher to review his IPP (individual program plan) I always love this time, cause it lets me see if I am on the same page as the school, cause it means that they are seeing some of the same things I am seeing at home...anyways here is Dallin's till the review in Feb...

Goal #1
Dallin will improve his communication skills....
1. Dallin will respond to "wh" questions during circle or other structured activities with visual supports (they won't normally use why as it is a complex question)
2. Dallin will follow 2 step directions during structured activites twice a week with visual supports.

Dallin is showing more intrest in communicating with others. He will smile and use eye gaze and some words to attempt to engage others. Dallin is attempting to use more phrases when interating with others. He is frequently not understood by others and success is dependent upon adult interpertation. Dallin is learning how to repeat words, and phrases. He needs help to try again when not understood. He is able to follow to simple directions when on task and is beginning to respond to questions.

Goal #2
Dallin will improve his social play and Participation in classroon activities
1. Dallin will participate with a peer in a gym or center activity for 3 mins with adult support 4 out of 5 days a week.
2. Dallin will tolerate two transitions a day using visual supports and peer models

Dallin continues to improve his ability to participate. He struggles with rigidity at times and has difficulty making transitions. During these times Dallin requires time to clam down and problem solve. On days when Dallin is less rigid his ability to engage with adults and peers when not emotionally overwhelmed. This can happen when very upset or when extremely happy or excited.

I really feel they are close to seeing what we see, even if we are too move I really feel it is best for him to stay there till the end of the year. I know it is going to be hard and anytime I complain I may need a reminder that this school and worked wonders with out boys and helped make them the boys they are today and I am excited for that, cause only with true love do you learn and grow at this rate and I know they are being loved there a much or if not more some days then at home, don't get me wrong I do love my kids very very much but sometimes I get very very overwhlemed with the plate that has been places in front of me!

a vistor for Dallin

Today Jessica from Achieve came to talk about starting the in home stuff with Dallin, I am so excited they are going to start doing this 5 days a week in the afternoon after lunch/school, it is going to be a huge thing for Dallin and alot of work for him but I know he can do it, now I just got to think of goals I want him to work on at home and in real life......he has them for school (IPP) but they do the same thing for home, we are hoping to find out soon about that townhouse cause that will change everything they are setting up because it would be a far trip for someone over here on the south to go to the north! oh well the talks are started and life is going to get even better

a photo night.....

well here was another try tonight at christmas photos, the kids are having way to much fun with it, I think they move now to just try again and again and again......tonight we went to West Ed as they have the christmas trees set up.......and then I did some pictures of just Sara later after the boys were in bed it was kinda fun......I might even try to do some of David and I....see if he plays nice being that he is now sick and all....

Family pictures:
http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/another%20try%20at%20photos/

Sara's pictures:
http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/a%20sara%20night/

the most amazing day

okay after a long week, i was laying on the couch well the kids had a nap and then phone would not stop ringing, one person after another well anyways, FSCD called, they have a approved us to have 8hrs a month of house keeping, this is such a amazing blessing, they have only set it up for 6 months to see where the kids are at by that point but WOW someone to come help me, that is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo awsome, it makes me feel like Iwill be a better mom already

Dallin's scare

So today I get a phone call from the school, now I am not sure about every other parent everytime I see the school number on the phone I think oh no what happened......well today I pick it up and Heather Dallins speech path says, Dallin is okay now.......but he did have a bit of issue today at snack time, at this point i quickely think in my mind what did I send for snack, chesse and crackers.....ummm that should all be good, you would think wrong, he put the cracker in his mouth just as he started a huge choughing spell and there it went and got stuck in his throat and they had to do the Heimlich maneuver oh him, which was scary for all but all was good and after all was said and done he turnned to Heather and point at his heart and said scared, which is huge for him.......I am so glad he is okay
when I got to the school he ran up too me and said mommy I was scared, and I said are are you okay now and Dallin was like in my throat.....I sure it is a moment he will remember for awhile... but because he was still contniueing to cough I called the dr's office because I wanted him checked to make sure he was good, we saw the most amazing dr, Dr.Walter's see got down to Dallin's level and even signed with him and he told her where he hurt I have never ever seen him be like this with any other dr even Dr Lee who he liked but it took us a long time for that.....so we will see I might ask to see her from now on :) but over all he is all good

Joshua's IPP visit

Today Melissa came today to bring Joshua's report to us, this in really one of my favorite time of the years as it is like a report card to me, where the parents and the teachers make the game plan of what to work on for the year. so here is Joshua's report.....

Goal #1
Joshua will increase his communication skills.

1. Following an adult model, Joshua will imitate a world more clearly 3 out of 5 times during circle or snack time.
2. With prompting, Joshua will initiate requests during routine situations (e.g. at snack, getting help with shoes, during project) by using two words/signs on 3 out of 5 observations.
3. Joshua will follow two step directions (e.g. cut a piece and put on glue) during project time 3 out of 5 observations.

At circle time, within routine, Joshua will request a turn, following the routine response of "me" or "I do". during centre time, Joshua will offer a word or two to comment of request. Often his word is unclear, causing his message to be lost. He will repeat himself and then wait for the listener to comprehend.

Joshua benefits from the audlt prompt and model to follow directions at project time. He is able to follow one step instructions with adult support.

Goal #2
Joshua will increase his play skills.
1. Joshua will imitate or copy something new that an adult or peer introduces, then incorporate the idea into his play (e.g. adult makes/ serves pretend cookies, Joshua copies this) during dramatic play at centre time 3 out of 5 observations.
2. Joshua will initiate appropriate play with one peer using short phrase/ sign modeled by an adult, 3 out 5 observations during centre time.

During centre time, Joshua needs considerable help to get started in play or to engage in purposeful actions. He currently, may select an area to play, but his actions can apper aimless or disorganized.

Goal #3
Joshua will incease his self help skills with dressing.
1. Joshua will indepently grasp and maneuver both zippers and velcro to fasten and unfasten personal items, during transitions, 3 out of 5 obervations
2. Joshua will orient himself to put on his jacket independently at home time, 3 out of 5 attempts.

During self-help routines, Joshua will request help, prior to attempting the skills of maneuvering zippers and velcro ( on his back pack and shoes) He requires help putting on his coat as well.


I am so excited to watch him change and grow this year, he is a boy of great will and drive I hope he puts it too work and it slows him down a bit, as wow he is a ton of work for me most days!

a try at family photos

there are many reasons why people go to people to get there family photos done, but I have decided what fun is that......I know we can get good pictures of our kids so why not try and try a little to get a good family photo, I have included the link from todays but here are a few of our favorites....







http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/trying%20to%20do%20family%20photos/

the hopes of a bigger spot!

Well I keep saying the month and the weeks have to get better and they are....there is just different stresses, We are currently looking to get into a town house which would be the most amzing thing in the world for us to have 3 bedrooms and a basment and a washer and dryer. This little apartment is way too much espically with the in home starting..........she (the resident manager at home ed) has said it normally takes a week so here we wait!

FSCD came today

today Jackie brought Dallin's new contract for the year, and it went over good, I am so glad that he is going to be able to start his in home therapy soon, it will be great to watch him grow and change.......today I also asked her if the can add in some house keeping because I am so struggling to be able to do that, deep cleaning never seems to get done we only ever do surface cleaning, it is really frustrating to me, I have always been a person that loves and needs a clean home and it is far from that latley. I know some of it is the kids and some of it is motivation and I have totally hit the bottom latley :S
hopefully things will get better

finally got a new dr for the kids

well a few tears might have been the only thing needed but it should not have got there, I am really sad that our kids Dr is gone for 6 months, Dr lee was a great Dr and her replacement and I did not see eye to eye, so I went back to the family Dr. to get a new ped Dr and see did a referral and then a week later they decided(the new Dr) to change there minds, and not take new patients I was very very angry so I called the stollery back and by this point I was in tears already has, the kids have had diarrhea for 2 weeks at this point and it was a little much for me and Danielle had called to say that she was not going to be able to come to it really was a combination of alot of things but I told Dr.Lee's nurses for not liking the replacement and that I wanted a new one she said she would change the Dr's and too bring in my new forms and they would get Joshua forms fixed for the government, I feel much better....I just need my breaks it is so important!

the potty is slowly becoming our friend.....

well things are going a bit better......Dallin has gone potty 3 times on the potty now! WOW what a great feeling that is for us, my dream to one day have kids out of diapers may yet come true ( I knew it would but sometimes it is hard to see the dimonad in the rough)......but yesterday he went once at school and then came home and went too, today was only at school so far but I keep asking him....and Joshua is trying too as he was going at school but then stopped but today he went at home on the potty... so it is exciting they are coming together, and there speech has come up alot in the last week too, I am so excited to see where they goo with this all even though it means more work in away for me....

done

okay after all the emotion melt downs on my part today, I decided I need to ask for some help.....I email the Reielf Society from chruch to get some meals you can only do so much on your own and then you need to let others serve you too, it is a blessing to serve others but it is also a blessing to be served! This is a hard thing for me to let my pride go and say I am done, I do not do this often at all because of the "I can do it myself" attittude but here I am a week of tears and a week of help to come, they lovinly brought we a week of meals well set them up so next so be a bit better get me on track again.............and I have decided I am asking FSCD for help with house keeping because i just can't keep up at all latley with the little things :S

the extra room is sort of done....

Well it is not totally done, but enought that they can play and if the in home was to start this week we are sort of ready, our room is a tornato and Dallin doesn't have his crawl place under his bed right now but we have the room we need for the boys, so there is not as much of the stress that I was feeling about where are we going to do this and how is this all going to work out....it is still a little crazy with our room and I told David I was going to set up Christmas this week so those totes are out of the way and he just kept saying it is too early but I see no problem there is only 50 days to christmas, anyways the kids are having great fun in that room we are having a hard time getting them out of there....... here is a few pictures from them tonight......Sara was the devil she is knowen to be......sorry about the viedo being the wrong way but you have the idea.....

So they were quiet this would be a bad thing right? yep it sure was the new and I mean 2 small bowls of cereal poured out the morning of ricekripes all over the room in there so what do ya do........you laugh cause otherwise your 2.95 is a waste right!

and then the clean up which is i think harder on the parents as it would be quicker to do it yourself but what are you teaching your kids.......

this is just for Tara.......

Okay there has been a disbute in David's family that stuffed animals have feelings now I am a whatever type person but I was storing some of them so I put them in the storage bags that you can take the air out of and this is what you get.....for the video you have to turn the sound up a bit but I got a good laugh which I have needed.........Sorry Tara but it had to be done......

I am so tired of sick kids, I do love my kids but the smell that comes with sick kids and the extra work that comes with them is no fun, butlet me tell you it has been a eye opener for me to watch and watch them closley the last few days, they are both talking so much more a day I almost thought would not come, it that sad yes kinda but at that same point I trully think it was how I have dealt or been able to deal in a loving way it to low my bar and let them be whatever my come, you have a dream of what your kids will be and what they will do you read all the devlemontal things they should be doing by this time, and too me it brings a tear to my eyes as I watch my boys struggle to be there age and do the things they are suppose to be doing, I know there is a reason to everything and I always thought they were doing things okay but ooops the bad mom in me didn't think anything of the lack of speech till our dr was like this is not right, and I am so thankful too her and the courage to read between the lines because I am not always very open with my wording even now someone asks me how many words my boys have I am like well somewhere between this and that, I think they are close and maybe that is too pad my own world I am not sure but it is honsetly frustarting to me as humans we have this whole, my kids can do this! can yours? attitude, why are like that.....it this what our Heavnely Father would want.....I know for me I have had a hard time with that as I am always trying to top someone else with what my child can do to make up for him and his lack of language and I hate it....and I go home feeling bad or I hang up the phone and was like way was I like that, as humans I think we are always trying to be something we are not and I am trying harder to not be like that because it is not a good thing, but it is hard....so back to my point I started with before my rant...they are talking more and pplaying so much better together they still have there days were they are fighting and which kids don't but they are happier as spark I have not seen in along time is starting to come back which brings a peace too me, I know they may never be right up too par with the kids there age but I know they have strenghs that many other kids could only dress of, I know my boys are going to bring many people closer to God though the struggles because God is the only person that has the true upper hand on there outcome....I know the Autism will be there through there lives it is not something that will be cured in my mind it is something they will learn how to adpat with and live in the real world with but they will be blessed because of it.....I know there are many out there that think they can be cured but if there was a cure would we be going through this.
sara my little angel, she is 15 months tommorrow it is so hard to beilieve it has gone by that quick, she is doing amazing.....I love her drive and determination to do things right or wrong if it is in her head to get it out is a hard thing.....she is or was talking more than we ever have heard the boys talk at that age or even now....but I am starting to notice less talking and more screaming latley and I am not sure why if it has something to do with watching the boys or of she is losing words, I am trying not to look at the negative too quickly byt sometimes that is really hard to me given the whole I already have 2 with some issue with langauge...and I am doing everything possible to get rid of some of the things that could lead too issues, like sadly she has no idea what to do with a sippy cup she can not make them work she is either a bottle baby or a drink box/straw girl as suppobaly sippy cups delay speech not sure how but I am like I already have 2 lacking lets make things as good as we can....but I have noticed her food habits are way bad already, she only eats the jar food really much else other than bread and potatoes must come from a jar and she doesn't want to touch stuff that is wet, dry is okay she hates being dirty at all.....I could go on with things and I have been thinking alot about what I am going to do with her, I know many people who do not give vainastions but we both David and I feel they are very important and have given them too our kids on time, but I have been holding back on the 18 month ones as I know these are the main ones people say cause problems right or wrong I am not totally sure, I know for Dallin the light they talk about them losing was gone before those needles as with Joshua so I know in my heart for them that it was not the 'cause' so why I am scared with Sara because everything almost seems too good to be true that something has to change and not be right.........it is trully my lack in faith that God knows what he is doing right now but I am afraid I don't want to lose what I have....
okay this is really a super long post but I needed to write my feelings about my kids I do love them I just worry a ton more than I need too but who would I be if I didn't worry....not me :)

3 is a charm

well, I thought that since I had only posted about the kids and the halloween things I thought I would post a little of my thoughts......have you ever wondered if you do things in vain....sometimes I feel that about the things I do.....as in the things I do with the kids, and david and for others..I do love my kids but there are days when I take them out and people make there comments too me about all my kids...if people ever thought about how much those hurt after awhile, I know I was given these kids for a reason, there is something that I must teach them and something I must learn from them they are a such a special blessing in my life and doing things like we did tonight and seeing that joy in there eyes is a awsome time, it makes everything worth it, it makes all the horrible diapers, and all the horrible days....seem a bit better....
If you do read our blog please let us know that you are here, comments are good, it is nice to know that I am not doing this for no one, well i guess it is good to do it for myself but I see people coming on the counter :) so be nice and just say hi some days
:)

Halloween evening at west ed mall

well here are the pictures from the mall tonight well some..............the kids had so much fun, it was so neat to watch Sara as she got her first treat she walked for awhile but it was crowed and it is hard to be bend over constantly so we ended up carrying her, but the boys loved it, it was so fun to watch them, they are growing up so fast.....

Dallin Dumping it all out to find the right "1" treat.....

Sara after all the treats were put away........ poor girl, a small taste of sugar makes you a little crazy.....

happy Halloween!

well I thought I would post some cute pictures of the kids, i will add more later but right now I am just here so here are the pictures....

treat night.....

Well David and I had a meeting we needed to go to tonight and we had Jade Hudson watch the kids which was nice.......we stopped at safeway on the way home to get treats for the kids because they have been home sick from school for the last 2 days, theyhad alot of fun with them.... silly kids

I got my time out!

it is great to know you have good friends who know when you need a break, tonight Raven, Dyane and I went to Applebees, it was way nice to sit there is a quiet booth and talk about everything and anything.....husband and kids and how to deal with different things, I have not gone out with just girls in along time and so I think I am going to try twice a month to just go out for tea or dessert with some girls just to get out it is a nice break and it is nice to feel human to go out......I feel like a better mom when i get a break away from my kids.......

a time out is needed

someone needs to send me to a corner, I am not doing great this week, last night I yelled at some kid a Wal-Mart cause he was making me mad, and then today I yelled at the picture place who did the school pictures because they were dumb and lucky for me the fixed the problem before it cost us both, I just have no patience for people being stupid lately and maybe it is because I have a huge amount of stress on my plate but I really really think I need a holiday away from my kids, I feel so bad and sad that I feel that way but I am so burnt out this month, with everything that has and is going on......I want a bigger place to live but I can't find that in our price range cause I don't want to go back to work as I ready work a full time job, and I want David to find a new job and he has put out a ton of resumes and only got the 1 interview that has not turned into anything yet, I just need something to fall into place, faith and patience only goes so far and then you end up going crazy......I am sorry if anyone thinks I am a complainer but I am done this month maybe next month will be better, but I want and need a break for me....month to month living is so hard.....and everything keeps getting more expensive I wish we could move somewhere cheaper but wait Alberta is the only place that has this program we need and Edmonton is still better than Calgary......I really would love to be in a small town away from this.....,...but I know I still have years before that is going to happen............oh well that is it for now

to the pumpkin farm

Well today was our field trip too prarie gardens, pumpkin patch, it was a good day, I would like to say I enjoyed myself but it was really dumb too me this year, the kids really liked it though and that is all that matters

I need to get out my funk of feeling like everything is just there and trying to fix everything something caqn’t be fix and we just need to enjoy them…..though it was nice to see some of the moms from last year that I got to really enjoy talking too, it is so hard being in the morning and not having any friends in the mornings….. but at that same point I am not trying super hard to make friends either, as much as I want them I don’t I am really in the funk of I want things but I don’t want to make the effort to do anything, I know it is sad but I am really burnt out I know

understand why parents are told to go away a couple day a year without your kids because it does make you a different person and you care for your kids different when you are taking care of yourself too………so we are looking into different options of how we can afford to go away for a couple of days and find someone to watch them for a couple days, even at this point if we start at a night and over time work up too a couple night or more, but we need to start taking time to work on us too or else what are we going to have when there are no kids left at home……
Also we are starting to work on our Christmas stuff as Christmas is coming soon, and it is funny to watc h our want have started changing, we know it would be nice to have all the toys in the world, but it that truly the most important thing…..NO so we are thinking for our own gifts we are going to do food storge gifts and get maybe 1 small thing but build our storage so that if things do ever happen we would have the food too support our family, right now we would live on a lot of soup but that is not everything…..we are also looking really hard to find a place that will fit us all and closer to the school so that I am not having to do so much driving as I am getting burnt out with it already……it is funny as we look at it more I am starting to see that I really don’t want to live in the city, my dream would to be in the country with a ton of room for the kids to run, a slow pase in life, this city life is way hard, and one day I would love to have a horse for the kids, my passions and desires to have a same little farm for the kids is getting stronger and stronger which is strange as I have no idea what is like to have a farm let alone anything more than a cat or a dog really but I so want to have a farm it is strange, I know therapy wise a horse would be awesome for the boys but who knows, who knows where life will take us in the next couple of years, espically once we have the boys both in grade 1 and 2 that will change everything because then the funding and the programs are so different….. oh well it has been a fun day so far, things are good just a lot of work but a lot of love and blessings come from that…..

fall pictures

so fun fall pictures, I have been trying to take pictures of the kids, a for the birthday pictures for the wall that we normally either get at wal-mart or the school, but this year i thought the school ones were bad, and i love taking pictures so why can't i do it, so here are a couple of the kids that i like we will see if the become the birthday pictures.....

a day of thought.....

I so love when you are almost done a post and POW it is gone, no where to be found.........

Today is one of those days that I have stopped and looked back on life, I wish I could say that I have been positive in the last year, I wish I could say I have been supportful in my husband in the last year, I trully wish I could say that I was greatful everyday for my kids and the blessing and love that they have brought into my life but that would be a lie, I have not always been the wife I need to be or the mother I have needed to be but how can you be when you have no idea what is next and how you are going to deal with it, really I have been in the fix mood or the stay a float world........it has been hard on our marriage to go through as much as we have, which I think everyone finds that at times but when you have issuse that are being dealt with and then you add in kids it makes it more fun.....It is so hard to think that I have been through 2 major assessments at the Glenrose now, I have 2 kids that honestly fix the autism spectrum with or without the label and I have a baby girl that is growing and changing so much, there is a ton of emtions every day that we go through, a big one that is hard, and we get asked often will the boys ever have full speech and understanding and the honest question is we have no idea, how hard is that too have no idea what tomorrow holds, or will they ever go to a regualr school I have no idea, all my dreams of what I thought life was going to be are so different, it is a different set of lens I must look through, I must have faith that whatever happens is our Heavenly Fathers plan and he knows what he is doing and what we can handle as humans.......or the hardest thing for me is telling people thank-you for the info and then throwing it out physically or mentally as it is too much, I know some people trully believe that diets can change the world or other things can fix autism, but I have learn that we will be guide by the hand of god if we know it is right or wrong.......and right now I don't think we can emtionally handle much more change for awhile in our home.........I know I am normally very quiet of how I trully feel and where I stand on things, and sometimes that is just the easier answer.....but is it really....because the silence has hurt too cause no one knows and can support you the right way....I am going to leave this post for awhile I may come back and I may not but know I am here, I am doing okay but remember I do have 3 kids under 4 and 2 have severe issues, so I am going to have bad days and good days and sometimes you have to hear the bad stuff to see the good stuff inbetween the lines of the bad.......

Home Visit with Kasha and MDT day

well today was a school home visit for the boys, they so love when people from school come to visit, they get new toys to play with! and it is always fun for me to hear how things are going at school and how they are changing......I am still waiting to hear about the MDT review for Dallin have got no new emails or phone calls in regards too it so i will wait till tommorrow, and hopefully everthing went well and Dallin can start his in home Nov like planned....well till tommorrow.....

Butler baby shower

tonight i went to the baby shower for For Jared and Patricia Butler.......they had a baby girl, on sept 25, 2007.her name is venessa gail donna after Patricia's twin sister and her 2 grandmas.she weighed 8 pounds 8 ounces, and was 52 cm long.

Happy Birthday David

Happy Birthday David.....

Another year and then you are at the big 35, hope you had a great day!

day 2 of glenrose.....

Today was our second day at the glenrose for Joshua's assessment, today we met with the doctor first and Joshua hid under a chair did not want her near him at all which was a good thing, they really do like seeing the melt downs, and then he went and saw Psychology which went better, he did not work always on her terms it was more his but his mental age rated at about 36months and he is about 38 months so all she could say was that he is a puzzle cause with the much working that way you would expect more would be going together.......well we had to wait for the family meeting at 3 and we finded there about 12 so Joshua and I stopped by Elmwood and Heather (Dallin's speech path) was there and she could tell I was struggling with the last couple days, /i was really starting to question if it was me or if he really did have issues, I really do worry a ton because I don't want to over think things but I know I do she helped walked me through the moment so that I could make it till later, we left and went and got Sara from the sitter and then went and got Dallin and went and got lunch for them and then went and got David from work and then we went and dropped kids off at another sitters house my poor kids, it has to be hard to be passed around that much.......
Well the family meeting.......I really do hate this because you go in not sure what you are going to hear or what to expect, it is so hard........well first thing she says is at this time we feel he does not met the criteria for the Autism Spectrum Disorder, but in the next breath she say it is at this time, it was a very close call she said but because he has been changing and starting to talk alot already because of school she wanted to wait till the end of the school year and relook at him, which is a good and bad thing, as too me it is hard to tell someone else and myself that he is being this way for this reason when you don't have that offical dignoses, but such is life.... anyways here is the findings they found.....
1. history of severe language delay and profound phonological delay
2. history of middle ear function and hearing within normal limits bilaterally
3. menatl development in the average range
4. history of sensory processing issues
5. moderate delay in fine motor skills
6. Adaptive behavior in the extermally low range
7. Pica (mouthing everything)
8. drooling and oral motor concerns
9. picky eater
10. concerns with activity level and attention

Recommendations:
1. Joshua will benefit from specialized preschool programming at Elmwood with continued input from speech-language and occupational therapy as part of the program
2. a referral to the glenrose feeding and swallowing service
3. diaper perscription
4. discharged from PAS
5. blood work
6. referred to psychology for the behaviour issues...
7. in home behaviour treatment

So for the most part this is all good, he is not on the spectrum but is still going to get all ther services at this point that he would on the spectrum, so the grief is there still for many reason but I know this is the right thing for at this moment I really hope things work out for the best him and he will be able to improve and and gain the speech and have the controlled behaviour he needs......till next time......

Also we got to go out on are date night tonight which was nice we got dinner and we got a movie and also we got to get Sara's new car seat.....WOW we got lots done in our 4 hrs it was fun

Day 1 of Glenrose....

Today we saw Occupational therapy, and Joshua really did not deal with her at all he hid most of the time, from what she got she put him at about the 18 month mark which is pretty low but i can see that..... we also saw Speech and Language and he worked really well with her and i think it was great that Joshua SLP from school came with us and she was able to give a good report of what she is seeing at school too....that was all for today another day tomorrow wow it is so draining, it is hard to still stay on top of everything when your emotion's are being pushed to the limits....

our trip to BC to met grandparents

Well we did alot of traveling this thanksgiving weekend but it was fun, just wish we could have more time to spend with the kids great grandparents, it is hard when they are so far away, and we came at a time when everyone was there and that is hard to find the right amount of time, the kids did well considering all, it could have been alot worse, I trully wish I could explain for hours why are kids do the things they do so that people could understand but it is not something that is possible, they are such smart and amazing kids, that i so wish they would show everyone that side.....I can't wait for the day that they are old enough to start there own things....learn how to ride a horse, play sports or have a musical side, i know it will all come cause they are so into it all now in a smaller way.....but it was a great weekend and we will try again another time.....here is some pictures from the weekend and i am going to go back and add more tommorrow some time


http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/our%20trip%20to%20BC/

Picture Day

today was picture day for the boys, I can't wait christmas to pass them out they are way cute, well really the kids are cute before this but this just proves it...

Danielle tonight....

tonight we had Danielle we went out for wings tonight, it was really nice to just get a break from my real life, somedays it is alot of work and stress in my real life and when someone else puts the kids to bed once a week it makes it for some reason feel so much better, i hope that does not sound bad but i think parent really do need a night away from there kids every week i am a firm believe of date night not only to keep the spark in your marriage but to keep the spark in life!

FSCD came....

Jackie came to make sure she had all the up to date reports for Dallin, as his MDT review is on Mon Oct 15, for his in home behaviour therpay......

October, 2007

RE: Dallin Mousir

MDT: COORDINATED SERVICE PLAN

Achieve Communication Services is requesting the following specialized service program for Dallin commencing November 1, 2007 to Oct. 31, 2008

October, 2007

RE: Dallin Mousir

MDT: COORDINATED SERVICE PLAN

Achieve Communication Services is requesting the following specialized service program for Dallin commencing November 1, 2007 to Oct. 31, 2008

Clinician Hours Monthly Yearly

Occupational Therapy* 5 60

Physical Therapy* 3 36

Speech-Language Services* 5 60

Psychological/Behaviour* 5 60

so far this is what he is suppose to get just waiting to her if it is all good!

Sara to the Glenrose

well today was Sara's visit to the Glenrose to visit Sib research this is a program that watches the development of siblings of a child with Autism, to me this is always exciting because they tell me if Sara is on line or off line of where she should be and she is following the right development line, but i don't count this as truth until we hit after the 2 year mark as it is between 18months to 2 yrs old that the autism comes out, yes it is normally in boys but whe we already have 2 struggling you really have to worry and wonder but I am so happy that she is doing so awsome, she is so amazing too me, it is so neat to watch and see her growing up.... i just so love my kids

Kasha's home visit

our first home vist with Kasha of the year it is a little different to have 1 person come for both kids, i do miss seeing Katy and Heather but at the same point it makes my life a little simpler which is always nice

meeting the lady

so today we got to finally meet Arlene from Achieve, this is the company that is going to be doing the in home behaviour intervention with Dallin she seems like a really cool lady and that it is all going to be fine, his meeting has been set for Oct 15 and she said it is normally a month to get it going but she is going to push for a short time frame so not much longer before my life because just a little more crazy :) but I am excited to see how it will all work out

the end of the first week!

Well we have done 1 week of school, and man I was excited for it but it was a TON of work, I had to fight to get them dressed, fight to get the too eat, fight to get them too the van and after all that when they are at the school the run from the van to the schools doors cause they are so excited to be there as they love it some much, then the 2 hours comes to a end and instead of being excited to see me they are sad cause they have to go home and stop playing there is no win with them I know it will get better but man it made it a long week, too see what next week holds!

Happy birthday too me

WOW it is hard to think that i am 30, and have 3 kids and feeling crazy, this week has been crazy as it always seems this way because school starts and routines are all out of wack, my birthday wish would be that i have a easier day the last few days have been way hard, the kids have fought to go to school and then they have fought to come home, they are just not doing well with all the changes, they love school but they don't understand why the fun has to end and why they can't stay all day. And the whinning and the fighting it is killing me, please let me have the patience and understanding i need this week. Please help David to be able to move forward and get a n ew job so we can have a happier home as right now there is a lot of stress here, some may think we are doing good but with any marriage and with kids and with kids with disablities it gets tough on everything, but David knows it is time he just has to do it now so prayers to help him would be great because it would be helping us all :)I will continue to do updates backwards in the next and get some pictures up but i just wanted to give a little up date

first day of school

Today was the first day of school, so david took the day off to help me because i was not sure how the boys would do, other than getting the ready and feeding them it was a walk in the park, there was a few crying spots and Joshua's big problem was he was mad he didn't get to go into Dallin's class room but other than that he seemed fine, I am so excited for this year and too see the changes that are going to come I know that our Heavenly Father blesses us in many different ways, my new favortie song right now is by Paul Brandt, Didn't even see the dust, the chorus is really the best part too me right now, as it is totally how i feel ...shot gun everybody getting for the long rundont know where we're going but the out come comes with a little bit of trust lets go following whatever where the wind blows flying with our hands out of the window we didnt even see the dust
http://hif.cmcmusic.ca/go/hif/mp3/10339/D1_1/

Life right now is alot of trust for us, we try very hard to keep it as though we are doing good and we have no problems with this but it is tough for us we have our days where it is very much frustrating and sad, we all have dreams of what we think or what we want our kids too be and when those don't come through the way we think they should it is tough and then you have to find that balance again.And each time something new comes up it is a time to step back and look again, I love my kids and I love the things they teach me every day and i am so glad that my Heavenly Father thought he could trust me enough to have these kids at this time in my life, and I ask for the patience of others because sometimes i may not do everything you think i should be but there is reasons why i do things the way i do, it just takes time to see the world the way i do now with my kids :)I am so glad that we are where we are, I miss my Calgary all the time and my friends and family but we are here for a reason!!

a random good time

well we had decided that we wanted to go to the Alberta Sports Museum on Sat with Grandma and Grandpa Mousir....so friday about 11 David was like we should go camping the night before, so I was like okay so I packed up the van and we picked him up on the way out of town and of we went, it is kinda fun to do those random things, and it was still sort of nice out which is good, but we were by a lake and it was fun to see in the morning when the mist hangs just above the water, it was just relaxing i love spending time as a family doing nothing really important other than having fun :)We got up in the morning and had pancakes and bacon and eggs and the boys tried everything i was so shocked, guess the fresh air helps lots of things!We finally get moving and head back RedDeer to go to the Alberta Sports Museum, boys had so much fun for the money.....they got to try things and see things they have not seen it was amazing to watch and see, they got over loaded pretty quick but it was great and then we went and saw the kiods great uncle lyod which was nice but they were really unsure of him as they are non-verbal as is he and so there is alot of boundires and then Loyd tried to take Dallin's communication book but that did not go over well at all so they did not start off well but by the end they were all okay it is something we would have to do more often to make it more comfortable for all, but all good
over all it was a great weekend :)

another camping trip

well you could say we have done ALOT of camping this summer but the kids have LOVED it which makes it so much fun, the boys got to watch a beaver in action tonight which was great fun, and they got the jiffy popcorn which they love! I know I say it all the time but they are growing up so much and changing every day which is so neat, oh Sara is close to walking fully

Kinsmen Park

it was the ward park day........so we went down to kinsmen not many people showed up but it was all fun the kids loved it :) espically the big slide they kept going back too it

here is the pictures:
http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/kinsmen/

happy birthday Sara

WOW can you beleive my baby is 1, it is so hard soo see her as a 1 year old, I am not sure where the time went but I think because she is so tiny still it is so hard to see her as a 1 year old, but she is amazing, i love watching her grow up and do things my boys didn't do at that time, she may not response always but she knows when you are talking too her, and she trying to show you things, I am not sure if it is different i am just noticing it differently because i have the time, but i know i am excited to watch my little girl grow up, we had cake and presents for her tonight as a family, i trully love my little kids they are so my world as is David but these kids are teaching me so much latley and I love it

here is the link to the pictures:

http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/saras_birthday/

Royal Alberta Museum with Jade Hudson

today we went to the Royal Alberta Museum with Jade.........the boys really liked the Alberta part were the look at all the animals in alberta and they also liked the bug room and the rock room the other ones were not there strong likes to be there,,,,,,,,,it is just so much fun to watch them growing up and learning and enjoying and being able to communicate there love and passion for things, they are changing so much and becoming amazing kids not that they weren't before but it is just fun to watch them grow into there own selfs............this summer of doing lots of different things has been great, alot of work but so great

here is the link to the pictures:
http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/Royal%20Alberta%20Museum%20with%20Jade/

home

Well as nice is it is to be home, the first day is always hard to adjust and david went back to work today too, so the kids are kinda cranky as they don't understand why he can't play still but other wise we are doing good, and glad to be home too our beds :)

a time to see a new baby and a time too laugh with some friends

so finally we get to see Matthew and Christine's baby he is about 3 months old here....his name is Dominc, it was just nice to be able to get pictures with all the grand kids for my parents as it is not often all the kids are together.

A couple hours away from the kids even on holidays it is soooooooooo great, we got to go out for dessert with Barb and Glenn Kiddle, we went to the Palliser downtown Calgary and yes there desserts are great but a little pricey in my mind for what you get, but that is okay, it really was the talking that was the important part of this time, just to have adult time with our friends and to be able to talk about the things in our lives that are causing hurt or laughing at the things that we have done that dumb, oh i miss our weekly dinner nights.......or laugh nights, laughing is so good for you, it is great form of therapy! who knows if we can't move back there maybe one day they will move closer to us :)

so here is the end of the holidays so back home we go so here is the pictures from the week :)http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=16469&l=783a0&id=589445629

happy birthday Joshua

so today we got up and we ate a bit and then headed out too Okotoks so that we could go see the Kiddle's as we have not really seen them in awhile, good thing we called before we got there because they were still sleeping about 9ish silly people you would like summer up early anyways we got there and sat and talked for a bit and then Barb made breakfast for everyone what a awsome mom is she.....and my boys even ate pancakes and eggs....which they won't do at home but hey we are not at home so they are allowed to do different things right......but it was a good thing i had all our swimming stuff in the van (my van of magic) as we decided to go to the lake with them oh and the White's came to which always adds another element of fun, but i can tell you as i was leaving i left apart of me there, I so miss sitting talking and doing nothing with Barb, I don't think i have ever had a friend as great and special as she is, i am always trying to find someone just like her and i have decided i never will we just have to make more of a effort to spend time with them, and i know that the phone is just as good when distance is a issue good thing for free long distance!
Later that night we went back to grandma and grandpa mousir's to have cake for joshua's birthday and Aunty Judy came over with some gifts for the kids and had fun, it is nice that the kids can see her every once in awhile, it would be nice to see all the aunts and uncles but life and life and they will see who is around and the other times we will have to make it up as we go along, we know everyone has busy lives as do we!
Then we went back to the tent to sleep for 1 more night, the kids went to sleep well after a long day

another fun day

today we decided that we were going to go camping so we went and payed for it ealier in the day and then we went out in the evening.......but first we thought we would do something cool with the kids, trying to keep up on our cool stuff wouldn't want the kids to get bored.....so we went to the Calgary Tower and oh my did the kids think this was the coolest thing you walk out the elevator and there is a full glass window where you can look down and see the ground outside and the cars driving by both boys ran out there and jumped both David and I were like boys be careful but you know that glass has to be so strong to be there and all that but it just does not seem right, anyways we walked around once and the boys sat and had a treat and then they wanted to talk around 1 more time and then we went downstairs, and then off to camping and setting up a tent and all that fun,though i will tell you not being able to have a camp fire if you wanted when camping is wrong, but supposably in Calgary you are not allowed to have fires within the city i have never heard this but this is what ths camp site said, oh well we got tooo sleep in the tent and that is have the fun right :)
and to say the lest it was pretty quiet there even though we were off the highway.....and the kids so loved it, wait they are loving almost everything we have been doing as a family this summer.............

heritage park

so today we went to Heritage Park in Calgary with Grandma and Grandpa Mousir, the kids loved it we really didn't look at much at the park but we went on the train ride and we went on the boat ride and Grandpa taught the boys about the trains in the round room and then we went on some rides, and even grandpa got on some rides with the boys, the boys laughed and had so much fun, they so love being able to spend time with there loved ones....family is a important thing too them, i know they wish they could see them all more.......

magic monday....capital ex

this was amazing day, i would tell anyone if they had a chance to go to one of these days to go for it, it was a day for special needs kids to go the Capital Ex with no extra lights and no extra music to over stimulate them as for most special needs, the lights and the music make it too much and most of these kids would never be able to do these days and also they keep the numbers down so that there not too many people there i think this year they said there was like 500 kids which is really nothing, but they let/help kids on any rides that they are able to go on and they do this from 9-11 and they had the Eskimo's(CFL) helping out to lift and ride the rides with kids really they did everything, it still brings tears to know that there are people out there who will give there all for some kids to have some fun that don't noramlly get to have some fun, i know for my boys they had the time of there life, and too see the sparkle of happiness in there eyes is priceless nothing can make life any better than that.......and after 11 they started giving out the free lunch to all the kids and family that came for this event. again amazing i will so be looking for this next year........i know we left before it ended because the boys were on overload but they did it and that is all that matters, they stayed for 1 ride and 1 smile what more could any mom ask for......they did more rides but i was happy they just did 1 and had fun!
i will add the picture link at the end of our hoildays as they are all together....as this was really the start of our week of hoildays with daddy :)

birthday party for the kids

today we had the kids birthday parties let me tell you it is alot of fun to watch them but it is alot of energy making sure everything goes okay, the boys were a little overwhellemed, okay really alot but it would have been that way at any party, and i would so rather do i day then one alomst every other weekend......it is hard to belive that my babies are growing up so much....Dallin now 4 and Joshua 3 on the 27 and Sara 1 on Aug 2nd it is so crazy....
Anyways we had over....Shelly and Tj Andrew and there kids Thomas, Maggie and Harrison and Raven Borstad came with 2 of her kids..Trian and Carter and then we also had Jared and Patricia Butler and how could we forget Tara and Nairin so lots of people, they got some awsome gifts that they love very much!After everyone left we took there new bikes outside to ride them for the first time they loved them :)

here is the pictures from that day:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=15050&l=4dcf1&id=589445629

what time is it? no it can't be that time I am not finished

i was a little crazy, we went to the ledge in the morning in my hopes to make them all tired so i could finish my cakes for the birthdays tommorrow well one problem if they are tired just that mean you made yourself tired yep that is what i did...............i needed a nap too so i did not get the cakes finished till later in the evening good thing i put the kids to bed early, but they are finished! and the party can go on tommorrow

can we sit still today at all?

this morning we had Jade from 10-1 and we went to twinbrooks playground with the ward, it is nice to get out with the ward and get to know some of them a bit better, the kids really enjoy being outside and playing at the park, not sure what they are going to do once school starts because the will be inside alot more............then in the afternoon Joshua had his year check up and the dr was looking at his eyes as one is pulling and then his nose because he has been getting more and more bleeding noses, the nose she says is because it is so dry here, suprise suprise so we are suppose to spray saline to help that and then his eyes she has refered him because even she could see it pulling so we have a 3-4 month wait for that because there are only 2 ped eye dr's in edmonton.....but otherwise he is doing great he is still 90% for his weight and height.....37lbs and just over 3ft and only 3 WOW hate to see what he is going to be like as he gets older, maybe he will slow down.otherwise life is going good for us all

2 people in 1 day what a break for me

we had Jade this morning from 10-1 and we went the muttart and the kids loved it, as did jade though she was like it is not as cool as when i was younger which makes me laugh as she is only 17 but she was like as a child it always seemed bigger but that is the truth about everything.......i just love watching them explore and learn new things, joshua had problems today listening so he spent alot of his time in the stroller, i hate doing that but because saftey has no meaning to him i have too........hopefully one day he will learn and understand it all.

Came home for a nap and then Danielle came to night for our break, I am so starting to trully love my 4 hours a week that i get to spend with david, some weeks i am like grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i have other things i could be doing but once we are out it is nice and realxing espically now that Sara is staying home more and more, we are going to try and start going to the temple more on our dates, it is just hard because you never know what she is going to be like and i hate if she is screaming for hours on a sitter that is not fair to either person. but tonight we went to a movie and just relaxed!

an afternoon playing

today we went to the ledge and played Anglea came to help which was nice, grandma and grandpa took sara, so it was just the 2 boys a adult for each but the boys didn't play to much it was only about 20c so it was a little cold after the 30's for the last bit, and dallin was startin to burn out, i think we were doing to much..................later that night after we picked up daddy from work we went and played at the hotel for a bit which was fun, the summer has kept us going, but it was great to see grandma and grandpa in edmonton :)

Happy birthday Dallin

Today was Dallin's birthday and it took awhile for him to understand and get excited........but as the day went on the more and more excited he got, we didn't do much today as the big party is when we do them all together on the 21st but we still had cake and time with grandma and grandpa mousir, the boys really enjoyed themsevles as did Sara.......... Dallin's cake did not turn out as well as i wanted but it was toooo hot in our apartment....hopefully it well get better this week for me as i am going to make each one of them a cake for there party on the 21st i know i am crazy but i totally love how excited they are for the cake and too see what it is!

here are the pictures: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14281&l=4b4e0&id=589445629

Aspen Gardens

today was again the ward play in the park group.........it was at a water park which was fun for the boys and I had Jade who helped me with Sara and the boys at times, i am learning it is just nice sometimes to have someone take Sara so that i can just run with them and they love it so much and I love getting right in there with them too, not only is the water nice to cool off it is nice to get the exersice from running around :)
here is a link tooo the pictures from this day:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14233&l=9305c&id=589445629

out too play in the water

today we had another new helper.....if you are getting confused i know it would be easy to do as i have alot going on latley, this is a young girl who is 17 and has alot of energy comes from a good family and intrested in helping with the kids to make money to pay for school....so to recap for anyone lost we have:Danielle who comes right now in th evenings 4 hrs a week to give David and I our time outAngela who comes right now Mon, Wed, Friday ish right now....but maybe giving some of her hours to Danielle because she is looking for more and not sure how long she is going to stay so we will see what happens there
and now Jade who comes Tues and Thursday mornings for 3 hours and helps us go out and play
today we went to the ledge and played in the water, you will learn this is my most fav place to go bacause 1 it is free and 1 there is 4 different pools they can go in and so it keeps them really happy and cooled off in this hot weather, Jade helped with Sara and watched Josh today because Dallin was in a running mood but it was all good and we had lots of fun and we dropped Jade off we went home and had lunch and then nap time the morning help is nice because then they will have naps and i get my much need quiet time/nap time too

a helper day

today we had our helper come and it was my house cleaning day, where she played with the kids and i cleanned as i find it soooooooo hard to clean with the kids around they just always want my attention imagin that....... anyways it was okay and i got some cleaning done, not as much as i wanted but some is better then none.......this girl is a nice girl just not sure how well she is mixing with our family so far :S

a first for Dallin

today Dallin got to be the prayer and scripture child for jr. primary, which was cool, david did the reading/prayer but Dallin stood there and was all proud you knew he really didn't want to be there but he did it and i am so proud of him that takes alot when you have social anxiety, he is gorwing up alot latley....

Thomas's birthday party

We drove out to Darwell to go to Shelly and TJ's first born childs birthday party....he was turning 4 and since we have been friends with them both kids, we make it a effort to try to get together once in awhile, though now they are a hour ish away from the city it makes for more fun....Anyways the kids enjoyed themselves so much, and David and I enjoyed sometime talking with friends mainly enjoyed adult tiime......the kids played with the water then went and saw animals as it is a farm and then went and had dinner and cake and opened presents all the good things of a birthday party.......i have added the link too the pictures so if they don't work be sure to let me know :)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14224&l=43bbb&id=589445629

I am a easy going person but this is so not cool

so today we were suppose to have our helper coming today......so at 12 i called and left a message to say what we were going to do and if she was still sick and not going to be able to come to call and let me know, so i told the boys we were wait and see but i knew if she didn't come i would have to go out by myself because i could not tell them we were going out today in a row and not do it, that i 1 not fair to them and 2 beyond the understanding of why and then we would have melt downs so i wait and wait and the slowly start getting everything ready i left about 2 and has still not heard anything, this makes me so angry and it take alot to send me into a good yelling mood, but people not doing something the say they will espically when it comes to the kids makes me soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo angry and i think i have that right, my motto is: if you say something to the kids mean it or don't say it because they remember and they get mad when you don't keep your end of the deal and then i am normally the one that pays and that is why i get so angry because it makes my life harder and that is not fair too me.................anyways, we went to the water and they stayed close never took off once, which was good and that is how they know they can go back.....but we came home and i told David what happened and we were like well what do we do because we can not have people not showing up, but she called about 9 too say she was sick and sorry she didn't make it........which i think made mad because she claimed she did not have my number well if you were sick you should have been at home and i left you a message at noon about everything with my numer, i do not llike being lied too so we will see what we do, i am soft and well probably give her another chance but she needs to grow up and take action with life.......anyways that is not what is needed in my journal :)

here is the link too some pictures:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14230&l=8ab5a&id=589445629

play day

today we went to the ward play group at the parks....it was at the greenfield park which has a small wading/ spray park there, the boys really loved it they were so mad when it was time to go home, i promised them we would get to go back out later when our help got there, but when we got home we learned that she was not coming today because she was sick....which i do understand so i told the boys after daddy got home we would go to the water, we as this day was nothing was working and David didn't get off till almost 7:30 but we still took them to the ledge for a little bit so that there wasn't so many promises broken in one day because they don't do so well with that...........they are so loving summer though

first day of extra summer help

Well this is a intresting thing as for many this maybe not a normal thing, but the government has given us extra hours to help us through the summer, so that i am able to get out with the boys and Sara and doing things i would not normally be able to do by myself as both Dallin and Josh do very well most of the time, but if i had no one and they both decided to have melt downs or run what do ya do with sara and she is getting ti big for the infant seat so that means she goes in the suggley or in the stroller so 1 boy would have to walk not always the best option.....so we hired a girl that our Reilef Society President (from Church) suggested because she has experenice with special needs type kids......i really thought this would be okay, she was last today, the boys sort of like her but it is not the fighting for attention thing they come everyonce in awhile so we will see what happens with this.......there is always other plans.....
Danielle came tonight which was nice i am really starting to enjoy my time out every week, it is a nice well needed break.....and David and I are starting to slowly find that different not so tired spark again, just need to find him a real job where he doesn't work so many hours and is tired from that all the time, i say a real job, but to clearify Classic is a real job, if you don't have a family there is just way to many hours involvled....