looking for..........a little sunshine!

As some many know and others many not know, the time has come again for us to look for a new place, only because our landlord became crazy, and now he is driving me to a crazy land.....where I leave the curtain's closed all day just so if he does show up I don't have to see him and he won't know I am home to talk to me....it helped us when we needed it, we loved this area and we loved the ward we were in at church, but we are struggling to find something in our price range in the area we want, so we are sure it is Heavenly Father leading us to other things, some days I get really mad that we have not stayed anywhere long to plant our feet firmly but at the same time it has allowed us to touch our people and teach people about our children and the blessing the are.
This time we have been looking at places we have been very up front about our kids and the challenges that they bring with them, because for some reason I felt this important this time, not sure why but sometimes you follow the spirit and learn later, Sat we got the chance to look at 2 places 1 I really loved and the other I would have been okay never to hear back from type thing....And then we went for dinner just David and I which was nice and then we went to a movie, I have not cried so much in a movie in a long time, I would recommend anyone going to see it, it was my sister's keeper totally different thing this family suffers from but at the same point how you deal with it all is not any different if that makes sense.....So David and I were able to talk and look at where our live is and where we are going and how we want things to be again....And as I sat and cried I knew there was someone I was forgetting among it all....it was really myself, I have been so consumed with the kids and with David I have forgot me...and as I stress myself to the max about moving again, I forget about me...and then we forget about us, as a couple we have just coasted again for a few months again.... so here is trying to find a new place so I can find me again, and not lock myself or my kids up anymore....I need some happiness in my life again...I am praying hard the Heavenly Father will show us to the right place and let the right person now, that this is what we NEED! I am so tired, I just need a little bit of sunshine in my life!
On a up note, David starts working 4 hours a day with Glenn at his store starting tomorrow so that is exciting, it is not his normal job yet, but this is the road to a start!

I love Capital EX! Magic Monday.......

summer!

I would love to say that summer has been great! but that would be a LIE.....it has been a hard transitation and let me tell you I will be glad to have some routine back in my life, I am going to order my program that I have wanted for almost 3 yrs now by the end of the month so I that I can get life ogranized the program I want is...boardmaker, now some of you would not know what that is because you have never had to use it but it is a program that allows you to use a visual picture to tell kids what they need to do step by step type thing....for Dallin the visual cues are soooooooooo important, he is so much calmer with with them, and we are looking at still getting him the ipod touch to put some pictures on so he can talk with others when he has the lack of words he needs....Dallin has come along ways but still has a long ways to go...I have learned to totally love the simple things about Dallin the smelling/ picking of flowers the drawing on everything....the loves he is so sincere when he tells you he loves you....I am so excited to homeschool him next year, I think he will trully learn the meaning to loving life!
Joshua has struggled as well with summer, he loves have his routine as well....I am so excited for him to go to providence I am hoping this is the year they will figure him out totally...he has been sitting on the fence for 3 yrs now...I know he is different, I have a strong sense of what I think is going on but sadly the medical people and I are not always seeing eye to eye on this all....so here we wait again for more testing for him...I hope one day this will all be calmer...
Sara, my amazing Sara, we had her speech assement done, a bit ago and paied out of pocket for it as it is so long to get aything done here in Calgary but they gave her the moderate-severe language delay and for some reason i was okay with this one, it is 3rd is a charm type thing.....but as I have gone through the summer waiting to hear if she gets into school which the final answer is not till the 17th of Aug, I have prayed that she will get the one year of school and be good....her social skills are amazing, i am learning more and more she is more like a "nomral" child but just has a language delay, and actually since doing the assessment her language has come up along ways....she is trying so hard to talk and get things through to us, it is AMAZING.....and okay the part that is about to drive me up the wall now is WHY? WHY? WHY? I have never had this before and let me tell you i don't feel like I missed out on anything up to this point...:) I know that is bad, but being asked why about everything can drive a person crazy!
I do love my childern they are teaching me so much right now, I have more patiance then I ever thought I would have....but I am trully loving it this week!