Today we meet Aunty Nairin and Jarrett in Red Deer first we went to see Alvin and The Chipmunks The Squeakquel....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S3ydELQlvT0
it was funny the kids LOVED it! and then we went for lunch......and after that we went swiming....it was a FULL day but so worth it, I am so glad we are able to spend time with friends and family that love our kids and love us! it makes it all worth it in the long run.....(and I am glad Aunty Nairin is moving closer to us again....)

Purple Zebra, Purple Zebra what do you see?

This is our version of Brown bear Brown bear by eric carl, I noticed after we finsihed these pages we were missing so words, by my mistake so I am going to fix that tomorrow but Dallin did awsome today on this book.

Star Fish project

This was one of our Sicence projects to watch and grow......I frogot to take a picture well it was small so we are going to do it backwards and see how long it takes for it to be small, this was a week to make it this big

a bad day or that a bad week......

Today is a rough day, not totally sure just not happy everything seems to be frustrating me and I just feel like crying.......so I am going to come back to this thought in a bit....




okay I wondered if a nap would help, the answer NO, I am still not even sure why I am so mad. I think all of last week has just caught up to me, I am so to the point where I am not sure if having FCSD (government funding) involed in ourlives is the right thing. I feel that they are not trully letting me do what my kids need. I feel controlled by it all, it makes me so sad, that I have to word everything so right just so I can get the funding for another year, I know perspective is a huge thing, yes there are kids out there worse then mine and mine are that bad but some days to ME they are a TON of work. I do love them do get me wrong, I am just getting to that point of how much engery can I put into fighting anymore if that makes any sense. I love homeschooling Dallin, I know I am not perfect everyday and some days we do nothing but you know i know that it is the same as if he was in school, and I know without a doubt that he would not be as happy as he is. We are working on getting out to socialize more but that is a every day thing, and I know once we have a second car things will be a little easier (that is something we are working on). I just feel like i have been back into a corner this week and I am not sure how to get out of it all this week and what I trully want.....I guess it goes back to waiting to see what they are going to say, as we go to MDT at the end of Feb. I know for Joshua unless I can get Dr.Lever to even give him the ADHD he will get nothing after Feb, and if he does get that then he will be only getting another 3 months and there I have no idea. and for Dallin they have not said what they will even offer right now, because the lady thinks I am so crcazy for homeschooling him so that is a fight all on its own and maybe I just need to let this all go but still not sure about this....I wish I had someone that trully understood where I was and had ideas of how to deal with this special system.....

Autism......

Autism

People with autism usually have difficulty understanding language and social behaviors

Always      

Unique      

Totally      

Interesting

Sometimes

Mysterious

I am a mother of a child that has Autism

He is a blessing to have and we love him very much

There is NOT a cure for Autism

There are different degrees of Autism

Some Autistics can function very well and other have difficulty functioning

Some can be affected by certain sights, sounds, or touch

Some autistics have unusual fears, anxieties, depression, and a desire for acceptance

All autistics can get frustrated just by simple things

A person with autism can become frustrated by simple things that don’t affect others.

They just want to be accepted and treated with love and respect, treat them like you would like to be treated.

People without autism sometimes do not understand the feelings that an autistic person is feeling.

Specialists do not understand what a person with autism is feeling…..sometimes even parents don’t!

Autistics can fixate on certain interests and excel greatly in the field, for example: computers, making movies, science, music, etc.

A puzzle piece is a symbol for autism

It is because Autism is puzzling to people who do not have autism

We would not be puzzled if we just accepted an autistic for who they are

Some autistic children are forced to change….. And it is not fair to the child. Would you want to be changed?

.......As a mom somedays and some weeks are harder and many tears are shed on those hard weeks, it gets hard when everyone says that oh the Autism is gone, or they are getting better....

It is there everyday, just some people do not see it because you are not there true safe spot....that can only be at home, no one will ever get hit more than me by my child, as he knows I will not hurt him and that I love him, we have shared many tears and I am sure there are more.

I just wish so much for a little bit of compassion from people, but I know sometimes that is HARD!