I know I have been missing in action for awhile, this has been one of the hardest times emotionally for me. it is so different when there is tough times and you have one safe spot to go hide, we had no where, well at one point the tent and then the motel, but nor really quiet time without my kids or even my husband to think about all the little and huge things going on. I feel blessed that our trial did not last as long as it could have but at the same point it has taught me that life can change in a moment and there is not much you can do but hold on as tight as you can to get over the bump.
The sad part is through this all I have drawn closer to the man that I call my higher being, I now he is helping us, the sad part to it all is that it has left me rethinking where life is too and church all that fun, I have some amazing friends at church that I love so much but there is alot of people I feel looked down upon, I hope that will change or we will change to make it work, I know what I know and I believe what I do, but weather we go to church everyweek or not does not make us bad people....just need to figure it all out again, it is that adjusting, now granted I have not been to the new "ward" so we will see!
I Love my God and I know he is amazing......it is the people that we have to remember that we are all not perfect even me.....I know I am not without a doubt.
Anyways, new topic.....We did get into our new house last week... a week today, it has been a great feeling to have something that is mine well ours! It is taking some time to get things the way I want as we went form a duplex to a very small 3 bedroom townhouse that does not even really have a basement so what we have done is put all 3 kids in the same room and we are using the one room for a play room and therapy room as we need a place for that. We do have a crawl spot which gives us lots of storgae which is nice. It is just going to take some time to get use to the new world we have.....it is all coming together.
Emotionally, everyone will live through this all.....it is making us stronger some how......i love my family they mean the world to me, even when they make me feel like I am going to pull my hair out.
