Sorry I am not doing so well at every day so I am aiming for 1 a week right now!
Day 2- Something that stresses you out
I have no stress in my life............ummmmmmm that would be a lie, I could dream but totally a lie. I think I could write a book on how to stress a woman out a yet I am still standing to round of applause's for that.
I think my current stress would be about Mr Joshua, I love him so much and that is probably why it stresses me out soooooooo much. Do I keep him at home and home school or do I try to get him into a special class......we keep going back and forth, I really thought I could home school him but I feel like he needs more than I can offer and that stresses me out but more than anything I want him to learn and be happy and I think that is the part he is missing is being trully happy, as much as Joshua is a awkwardly social kids, he ENJOYS being around other kids, and well being at home there is not a ton of that, and with running around for Dallin and David I feel like putting him in something would make me want to pull my hair out. the frustrating part to me is I KNEW without a doubt I was suppose to home school him but now I am like was it just for the little time.....So for me to get my true answers I am going to start calling different schools to see the different programs and see if there is the option of Jan......who knows I just feel like I am not being the best mom and teacher right now for him because he is so all over the place and hard to get focused, still a hard spot.Another of my million stresses, I think there is a true reason I put this on off....because I could write a novel about my stresses....don't get me wrong though I LOVE my life!
I love my David so much, and I stand behind him because of that fact(while beside him) David had been through a ton in the last 2 years, I wonder some days if we will ever see the light of WOW you are better totally or not but most days I try not to get down about it because it does not help him, but now that his EI medical has run out he is starting to have to look for work as his family doctor says constant migraines is not a reason to not work.....HAHAHAHA so here we are trying to figure it all out, and now social assistance is trying to do the push to get him back to work too....all good but I just hope it is not to much and makes him worse again, though he is starting to notice the PT has helped his migraine a bit, he says they don't spike like they were it is now more of a constant so we are getting somewhere in my mind. David is also applying for school too so hopefully he is able to get into school and better himself that way!
Sleep.....who needs that.....according to Sara she would think no one does, he has been getting up with the sun between 5-6am but thinking she should stay up till 10-11pm driving us NUTS! we have been pulling out our hair about her.....the fact that all 3 had been sleeping in the same room makes this all tough, as of tonight Sara is sleeping in the play room as I said she need some just Sara time and she has a bin of her toys she can play with when she wakes up but she is not to wake up her brothers, as they are kids that NEED there sleep and they are getting grouchy and then mommy and daddy get grouchy it is not a pretty world at all so here is to better sleeping nights so all my make it through this part of life! I don't care anymore if she sleeps on a air mattress in the play room as long as we all get SLEEP!
My biggest stress in the world trully though and probably the closest thing to my heart, is my kids being picked on (other than money stresses but really who doesn't have all those) Dallin is just a kind and soft child who LOVES to make people happy, people sad make him sad and he will sometimes just start crying because others are....I have had to advocate alot for him lately as he was picked on at church and when it was brought up they told me he might have to learn not to be so sensitive, anyone that knows about Autism knows that statement is totally out there, you can not just brush some of these things off like that, I was going to totally let this ruin church for us all because I was like this is not something I should be having to deal with, than one day i woke up and was like WRONG this is something I NEED to fight for, Dallin deserves to go to church and Dallin deserves to not be picked on.....when Christ came to the earth who did he spend the largest amount of time with......the children....Dallin is a amazing little boy and has so much to offer if people would just stop to listen to him for a moment and feel of his love and peace.... He is one of my many hero's (all my kids and David are) but i love that it takes so much for him to get mad that people are mean to him.
I do love my life, I know I do have some stresses in life, but none that I can't seem to handle without a little bit of screaming.....but what would life be without a little bit of angry to know the true happiness and joys of life!
