3 is a charm

well, I thought that since I had only posted about the kids and the halloween things I thought I would post a little of my thoughts......have you ever wondered if you do things in vain....sometimes I feel that about the things I do.....as in the things I do with the kids, and david and for others..I do love my kids but there are days when I take them out and people make there comments too me about all my kids...if people ever thought about how much those hurt after awhile, I know I was given these kids for a reason, there is something that I must teach them and something I must learn from them they are a such a special blessing in my life and doing things like we did tonight and seeing that joy in there eyes is a awsome time, it makes everything worth it, it makes all the horrible diapers, and all the horrible days....seem a bit better....
If you do read our blog please let us know that you are here, comments are good, it is nice to know that I am not doing this for no one, well i guess it is good to do it for myself but I see people coming on the counter :) so be nice and just say hi some days
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Halloween evening at west ed mall

well here are the pictures from the mall tonight well some..............the kids had so much fun, it was so neat to watch Sara as she got her first treat she walked for awhile but it was crowed and it is hard to be bend over constantly so we ended up carrying her, but the boys loved it, it was so fun to watch them, they are growing up so fast.....

Dallin Dumping it all out to find the right "1" treat.....

Sara after all the treats were put away........ poor girl, a small taste of sugar makes you a little crazy.....

happy Halloween!

well I thought I would post some cute pictures of the kids, i will add more later but right now I am just here so here are the pictures....

treat night.....

Well David and I had a meeting we needed to go to tonight and we had Jade Hudson watch the kids which was nice.......we stopped at safeway on the way home to get treats for the kids because they have been home sick from school for the last 2 days, theyhad alot of fun with them.... silly kids

I got my time out!

it is great to know you have good friends who know when you need a break, tonight Raven, Dyane and I went to Applebees, it was way nice to sit there is a quiet booth and talk about everything and anything.....husband and kids and how to deal with different things, I have not gone out with just girls in along time and so I think I am going to try twice a month to just go out for tea or dessert with some girls just to get out it is a nice break and it is nice to feel human to go out......I feel like a better mom when i get a break away from my kids.......

a time out is needed

someone needs to send me to a corner, I am not doing great this week, last night I yelled at some kid a Wal-Mart cause he was making me mad, and then today I yelled at the picture place who did the school pictures because they were dumb and lucky for me the fixed the problem before it cost us both, I just have no patience for people being stupid lately and maybe it is because I have a huge amount of stress on my plate but I really really think I need a holiday away from my kids, I feel so bad and sad that I feel that way but I am so burnt out this month, with everything that has and is going on......I want a bigger place to live but I can't find that in our price range cause I don't want to go back to work as I ready work a full time job, and I want David to find a new job and he has put out a ton of resumes and only got the 1 interview that has not turned into anything yet, I just need something to fall into place, faith and patience only goes so far and then you end up going crazy......I am sorry if anyone thinks I am a complainer but I am done this month maybe next month will be better, but I want and need a break for me....month to month living is so hard.....and everything keeps getting more expensive I wish we could move somewhere cheaper but wait Alberta is the only place that has this program we need and Edmonton is still better than Calgary......I really would love to be in a small town away from this.....,...but I know I still have years before that is going to happen............oh well that is it for now

to the pumpkin farm

Well today was our field trip too prarie gardens, pumpkin patch, it was a good day, I would like to say I enjoyed myself but it was really dumb too me this year, the kids really liked it though and that is all that matters

I need to get out my funk of feeling like everything is just there and trying to fix everything something caqn’t be fix and we just need to enjoy them…..though it was nice to see some of the moms from last year that I got to really enjoy talking too, it is so hard being in the morning and not having any friends in the mornings….. but at that same point I am not trying super hard to make friends either, as much as I want them I don’t I am really in the funk of I want things but I don’t want to make the effort to do anything, I know it is sad but I am really burnt out I know

understand why parents are told to go away a couple day a year without your kids because it does make you a different person and you care for your kids different when you are taking care of yourself too………so we are looking into different options of how we can afford to go away for a couple of days and find someone to watch them for a couple days, even at this point if we start at a night and over time work up too a couple night or more, but we need to start taking time to work on us too or else what are we going to have when there are no kids left at home……
Also we are starting to work on our Christmas stuff as Christmas is coming soon, and it is funny to watc h our want have started changing, we know it would be nice to have all the toys in the world, but it that truly the most important thing…..NO so we are thinking for our own gifts we are going to do food storge gifts and get maybe 1 small thing but build our storage so that if things do ever happen we would have the food too support our family, right now we would live on a lot of soup but that is not everything…..we are also looking really hard to find a place that will fit us all and closer to the school so that I am not having to do so much driving as I am getting burnt out with it already……it is funny as we look at it more I am starting to see that I really don’t want to live in the city, my dream would to be in the country with a ton of room for the kids to run, a slow pase in life, this city life is way hard, and one day I would love to have a horse for the kids, my passions and desires to have a same little farm for the kids is getting stronger and stronger which is strange as I have no idea what is like to have a farm let alone anything more than a cat or a dog really but I so want to have a farm it is strange, I know therapy wise a horse would be awesome for the boys but who knows, who knows where life will take us in the next couple of years, espically once we have the boys both in grade 1 and 2 that will change everything because then the funding and the programs are so different….. oh well it has been a fun day so far, things are good just a lot of work but a lot of love and blessings come from that…..

fall pictures

so fun fall pictures, I have been trying to take pictures of the kids, a for the birthday pictures for the wall that we normally either get at wal-mart or the school, but this year i thought the school ones were bad, and i love taking pictures so why can't i do it, so here are a couple of the kids that i like we will see if the become the birthday pictures.....

a day of thought.....

I so love when you are almost done a post and POW it is gone, no where to be found.........

Today is one of those days that I have stopped and looked back on life, I wish I could say that I have been positive in the last year, I wish I could say I have been supportful in my husband in the last year, I trully wish I could say that I was greatful everyday for my kids and the blessing and love that they have brought into my life but that would be a lie, I have not always been the wife I need to be or the mother I have needed to be but how can you be when you have no idea what is next and how you are going to deal with it, really I have been in the fix mood or the stay a float world........it has been hard on our marriage to go through as much as we have, which I think everyone finds that at times but when you have issuse that are being dealt with and then you add in kids it makes it more fun.....It is so hard to think that I have been through 2 major assessments at the Glenrose now, I have 2 kids that honestly fix the autism spectrum with or without the label and I have a baby girl that is growing and changing so much, there is a ton of emtions every day that we go through, a big one that is hard, and we get asked often will the boys ever have full speech and understanding and the honest question is we have no idea, how hard is that too have no idea what tomorrow holds, or will they ever go to a regualr school I have no idea, all my dreams of what I thought life was going to be are so different, it is a different set of lens I must look through, I must have faith that whatever happens is our Heavenly Fathers plan and he knows what he is doing and what we can handle as humans.......or the hardest thing for me is telling people thank-you for the info and then throwing it out physically or mentally as it is too much, I know some people trully believe that diets can change the world or other things can fix autism, but I have learn that we will be guide by the hand of god if we know it is right or wrong.......and right now I don't think we can emtionally handle much more change for awhile in our home.........I know I am normally very quiet of how I trully feel and where I stand on things, and sometimes that is just the easier answer.....but is it really....because the silence has hurt too cause no one knows and can support you the right way....I am going to leave this post for awhile I may come back and I may not but know I am here, I am doing okay but remember I do have 3 kids under 4 and 2 have severe issues, so I am going to have bad days and good days and sometimes you have to hear the bad stuff to see the good stuff inbetween the lines of the bad.......

Home Visit with Kasha and MDT day

well today was a school home visit for the boys, they so love when people from school come to visit, they get new toys to play with! and it is always fun for me to hear how things are going at school and how they are changing......I am still waiting to hear about the MDT review for Dallin have got no new emails or phone calls in regards too it so i will wait till tommorrow, and hopefully everthing went well and Dallin can start his in home Nov like planned....well till tommorrow.....

Butler baby shower

tonight i went to the baby shower for For Jared and Patricia Butler.......they had a baby girl, on sept 25, 2007.her name is venessa gail donna after Patricia's twin sister and her 2 grandmas.she weighed 8 pounds 8 ounces, and was 52 cm long.

Happy Birthday David

Happy Birthday David.....

Another year and then you are at the big 35, hope you had a great day!

day 2 of glenrose.....

Today was our second day at the glenrose for Joshua's assessment, today we met with the doctor first and Joshua hid under a chair did not want her near him at all which was a good thing, they really do like seeing the melt downs, and then he went and saw Psychology which went better, he did not work always on her terms it was more his but his mental age rated at about 36months and he is about 38 months so all she could say was that he is a puzzle cause with the much working that way you would expect more would be going together.......well we had to wait for the family meeting at 3 and we finded there about 12 so Joshua and I stopped by Elmwood and Heather (Dallin's speech path) was there and she could tell I was struggling with the last couple days, /i was really starting to question if it was me or if he really did have issues, I really do worry a ton because I don't want to over think things but I know I do she helped walked me through the moment so that I could make it till later, we left and went and got Sara from the sitter and then went and got Dallin and went and got lunch for them and then went and got David from work and then we went and dropped kids off at another sitters house my poor kids, it has to be hard to be passed around that much.......
Well the family meeting.......I really do hate this because you go in not sure what you are going to hear or what to expect, it is so hard........well first thing she says is at this time we feel he does not met the criteria for the Autism Spectrum Disorder, but in the next breath she say it is at this time, it was a very close call she said but because he has been changing and starting to talk alot already because of school she wanted to wait till the end of the school year and relook at him, which is a good and bad thing, as too me it is hard to tell someone else and myself that he is being this way for this reason when you don't have that offical dignoses, but such is life.... anyways here is the findings they found.....
1. history of severe language delay and profound phonological delay
2. history of middle ear function and hearing within normal limits bilaterally
3. menatl development in the average range
4. history of sensory processing issues
5. moderate delay in fine motor skills
6. Adaptive behavior in the extermally low range
7. Pica (mouthing everything)
8. drooling and oral motor concerns
9. picky eater
10. concerns with activity level and attention

Recommendations:
1. Joshua will benefit from specialized preschool programming at Elmwood with continued input from speech-language and occupational therapy as part of the program
2. a referral to the glenrose feeding and swallowing service
3. diaper perscription
4. discharged from PAS
5. blood work
6. referred to psychology for the behaviour issues...
7. in home behaviour treatment

So for the most part this is all good, he is not on the spectrum but is still going to get all ther services at this point that he would on the spectrum, so the grief is there still for many reason but I know this is the right thing for at this moment I really hope things work out for the best him and he will be able to improve and and gain the speech and have the controlled behaviour he needs......till next time......

Also we got to go out on are date night tonight which was nice we got dinner and we got a movie and also we got to get Sara's new car seat.....WOW we got lots done in our 4 hrs it was fun

Day 1 of Glenrose....

Today we saw Occupational therapy, and Joshua really did not deal with her at all he hid most of the time, from what she got she put him at about the 18 month mark which is pretty low but i can see that..... we also saw Speech and Language and he worked really well with her and i think it was great that Joshua SLP from school came with us and she was able to give a good report of what she is seeing at school too....that was all for today another day tomorrow wow it is so draining, it is hard to still stay on top of everything when your emotion's are being pushed to the limits....

our trip to BC to met grandparents

Well we did alot of traveling this thanksgiving weekend but it was fun, just wish we could have more time to spend with the kids great grandparents, it is hard when they are so far away, and we came at a time when everyone was there and that is hard to find the right amount of time, the kids did well considering all, it could have been alot worse, I trully wish I could explain for hours why are kids do the things they do so that people could understand but it is not something that is possible, they are such smart and amazing kids, that i so wish they would show everyone that side.....I can't wait for the day that they are old enough to start there own things....learn how to ride a horse, play sports or have a musical side, i know it will all come cause they are so into it all now in a smaller way.....but it was a great weekend and we will try again another time.....here is some pictures from the weekend and i am going to go back and add more tommorrow some time


http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/mousir_family/our%20trip%20to%20BC/

Picture Day

today was picture day for the boys, I can't wait christmas to pass them out they are way cute, well really the kids are cute before this but this just proves it...

Danielle tonight....

tonight we had Danielle we went out for wings tonight, it was really nice to just get a break from my real life, somedays it is alot of work and stress in my real life and when someone else puts the kids to bed once a week it makes it for some reason feel so much better, i hope that does not sound bad but i think parent really do need a night away from there kids every week i am a firm believe of date night not only to keep the spark in your marriage but to keep the spark in life!

FSCD came....

Jackie came to make sure she had all the up to date reports for Dallin, as his MDT review is on Mon Oct 15, for his in home behaviour therpay......

October, 2007

RE: Dallin Mousir

MDT: COORDINATED SERVICE PLAN

Achieve Communication Services is requesting the following specialized service program for Dallin commencing November 1, 2007 to Oct. 31, 2008

October, 2007

RE: Dallin Mousir

MDT: COORDINATED SERVICE PLAN

Achieve Communication Services is requesting the following specialized service program for Dallin commencing November 1, 2007 to Oct. 31, 2008

Clinician Hours Monthly Yearly

Occupational Therapy* 5 60

Physical Therapy* 3 36

Speech-Language Services* 5 60

Psychological/Behaviour* 5 60

so far this is what he is suppose to get just waiting to her if it is all good!