Monday, October 12, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Part one of the Thanksgiving Weekend!
Well this week, we thought it was going to be a evil mess from hell but it turned out really good, we left Sat morning about a hour later than we wanted but such is life when 1. kids are involved and 2. when you are travelling with other people and you need to wait for them! But we followed (and anyone that really knows me, knows this is hard, I like to be in control) the in-laws in their durango.....I did have some demands, I want to stop at frank slide, and the biggest truck in the world and anything else cool along the way. Well because it was soooooooooooooooooooooo cold we only made a couple stops on the way up to Kimberly.
Sparwood---World's largest truck
We stopped in Fernie
Frank Slide
back on the road we went after our short picture stop!
Sparwood---World's largest truck
We stopped in Fernie
at the wooden oil Derick, Joshua was the only one to get out but he quickly ran and looked at everything and then we got back in the van to meet up with everyone again!
After getting some food we were off to Kimberly.......that will be the next post!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Day 1 done for Joshua
Day one of testing done, Joshua did well, a few melt downs and whines but nothing big. The lady asked if this was pretty typical of him I said yes and no it depends where he is, he is totally a different child for everyone but us almost.....and his aid's that work with him at home. Again it is not that I want a label it is I want the skills and the help to be able to deal with the situations at hand. I know can do it just some days it seems harder than others especially when you are the emotion tired. oh well next testing is next Thursday!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
the next emotional rollercoaster
tomorrow is the start again of a emotional roller coaster. I am so scared and sad and excited all in a ball roll it and you will find maybe one of my many emotions. Joshua starts testing again, with the preschool assessment team. Many would question why we are pushing for this again, as we did this a couple years ago, but they could not give us a answer at this time and I hope at this point they will be able to figure out what is going on with our Joshua, it is so hard as I watch him get to mad and frustrated with his worker at home every day and as I sat in his IPP meeting at school today and listen to them tell me he is the most wonderful child and they have no problems with him I want to cry, I know he is a wonderful child and I am so glad that he is doing so well at school but why is he not doing well at home with us, what are we doing so wrong. I wish I could figure this all out, I hate feeling like I am a bad mom but that is sadly what this meeting made me feel like today, so I am hoping that they lady he seeing tomorrow call see some of these issues and either tell us something, or offer a bit more support to be able to seal with this things, it is not that I want a label for my child it is I truly want him getting the help he truly needs. it is just a hard emotion time and I get a bit ugly during these times and I probably truly wont have a answer until the 22nd of Oct which is a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGG to wait for answers.
summer is gone.....
Where has time gone summer is gone and now we are back to the grind. I would love to say that is a good thing and I think it is.......we are slowly getting into the swing of things. Joshua is loving school, he is doing so well. we went through a few days thinking he would not get in because he has improved so much but he did get in which is nice and Dallin is starting to settle in well with the home schooling, though today i was boring but most days he does well. we are starting to fit nicely into out new home and love it, there is so much close to us.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tribute to TJ Andrews
Wow I would not have thought I would have to do this yet for many years, I really wish I could totally hug Shelly and say I am sorry this happened but at the same point we all knew this day would come but when we were not sure.
I consider TJ like a brother, I loved the moments we did get to hang out, many good times and many bad times, like with anyone. TJ is and always will be a amazing person in my life.
TJ for the most part was a very happy person, alot of out look and alot of dreams in his life. I loved about him he really thought he could do almost anything. I did share my tears of sorrow with him as well. TJ had some great roommates and some bad ones I was there through alot of them. When times were bad especially before Shelly was in the picture he would call me. I remember like yesterday when he called to tell me his mom passed away I layed there and cried with him. I want to ease his pain and knew at that moment I could not, I am so glad he is with his mom as this time, she was a great woman I enjoyed the dinner I was able to eat with them the one time.
I do remember the first time I met TJ he was my home teacher, TJ lived in the big house and I was in the love shack.(good names for young adult housing) I struggled so hard that first year I was in Edmonton, I struggled emotionally and spiritually, TJ worked very hard to help me raise myself up. I spent alot of time with him going places that he could not get too without help.I went to many weddings with TJ and many events, he was at that time trully my best friend. I remember times when TJ would get depressed because his life was not going the way he thought it should have been. And my times that we both trully walked that line, we both took our times away from the church and did things that were not always good but we both worked hard to help the other one to find our ways back to where we need to be.
TJ was the first one to know I was engaged, he was actually sitting in the living room when David asked me outside on the balcony. I remember him being so excited for us, he was sad because it was not him but so happy for us. I was so happy for him to be our MC at our wedding reception he had so much fun with that. I remember when him and Shelly got together, they were so good together I was so happy for them, not everyone was on the same page at first but we all learned in the end that they were the best for each other, they made each other so happy. I was one of the first when TJ called to say the Shelly was expecting. I remember the feelings that went together with that for them. TJ really thought he would never be able to have children and was blessed with 3 before he life this earth and the 4 on the way and due in the next month. Bless Shelly with the strength to make it through those tough moments ahead. David enjoyed being part of the wedding when Shelly and TJ got married, there is just so many moments that we have enjoyed with them as families know. Birthday parties just a because visit. it was hard when we moved to different cities but at times we worked hard to see each other more than when we lived in the same cities.
TJ Andrews
Oct 28, 1978 - Sept 20,2009
I consider TJ like a brother, I loved the moments we did get to hang out, many good times and many bad times, like with anyone. TJ is and always will be a amazing person in my life.
TJ for the most part was a very happy person, alot of out look and alot of dreams in his life. I loved about him he really thought he could do almost anything. I did share my tears of sorrow with him as well. TJ had some great roommates and some bad ones I was there through alot of them. When times were bad especially before Shelly was in the picture he would call me. I remember like yesterday when he called to tell me his mom passed away I layed there and cried with him. I want to ease his pain and knew at that moment I could not, I am so glad he is with his mom as this time, she was a great woman I enjoyed the dinner I was able to eat with them the one time.
I do remember the first time I met TJ he was my home teacher, TJ lived in the big house and I was in the love shack.(good names for young adult housing) I struggled so hard that first year I was in Edmonton, I struggled emotionally and spiritually, TJ worked very hard to help me raise myself up. I spent alot of time with him going places that he could not get too without help.I went to many weddings with TJ and many events, he was at that time trully my best friend. I remember times when TJ would get depressed because his life was not going the way he thought it should have been. And my times that we both trully walked that line, we both took our times away from the church and did things that were not always good but we both worked hard to help the other one to find our ways back to where we need to be.
TJ was the first one to know I was engaged, he was actually sitting in the living room when David asked me outside on the balcony. I remember him being so excited for us, he was sad because it was not him but so happy for us. I was so happy for him to be our MC at our wedding reception he had so much fun with that. I remember when him and Shelly got together, they were so good together I was so happy for them, not everyone was on the same page at first but we all learned in the end that they were the best for each other, they made each other so happy. I was one of the first when TJ called to say the Shelly was expecting. I remember the feelings that went together with that for them. TJ really thought he would never be able to have children and was blessed with 3 before he life this earth and the 4 on the way and due in the next month. Bless Shelly with the strength to make it through those tough moments ahead. David enjoyed being part of the wedding when Shelly and TJ got married, there is just so many moments that we have enjoyed with them as families know. Birthday parties just a because visit. it was hard when we moved to different cities but at times we worked hard to see each other more than when we lived in the same cities.
I know I have started to ramble and probably not make much sense to many others, but in the end TJ was a awsome friend, to those around and a awsome husband a father to his family and will be greatly missed by all TJ trully is a hero to me for the things he has been through. many God be with his family and help us to be the supports that they are going to need as time goes on, we love you Shelly, Thomas, Maggie. Harrison and the new baby you are always on our minds and in our prayers
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
ONE Year Down!
ONE YEAR DOWN!
David did go back to work just before the one year mark, Only part time still and not where he would like to be but it is something a start to see where we go from there. So far he is doing well, things seem to be getting a bit better for him the headaces are still there but that sadly is something he might have to learn to live with. I wish he could say things are totally better, when we hit the year mark it was suppose to be "better" as of it we are not DONE! but I know through the faith of God things are going to get better. he has been promised that and I do believe it sometimes it is just the faith to know what GOD's time frame in that is the hard part, but we are slowly starting to be a bit better with him working again, I do miss the second set of hands in the hours that are more stressful then others but glad to be getting back into my routine of things.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
in a bit of shock
still in a bit of Shock, Katrina called to tell me how TJ was doing, and that they were going to be turning the machines off with TJ later today, I just sat there like this is a dream this is not real, it has been hard being away from out friends in Edmonton. All I could do was cry for the family of TJ, as I knew in the long run this day was coming but still not easy. I wish the family peace at this time in there life.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
DONE
DONE with the crazy landlord, did our walk through tonight and everything was marked off good after the second walk through as they trully thought that the place should look as if it came out of box and we didnt live there for the last year with 3 kids. They wanted no wear and tear at all. But after all is said and done I am still thinking of taking him to small claims for my almost $300 but otherwise we got all our money back, and I am glad that I am not having to deal with him on almost daily base.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
looking for..........a little sunshine!
As some many know and others many not know, the time has come again for us to look for a new place, only because our landlord became crazy, and now he is driving me to a crazy land.....where I leave the curtain's closed all day just so if he does show up I don't have to see him and he won't know I am home to talk to me....it helped us when we needed it, we loved this area and we loved the ward we were in at church, but we are struggling to find something in our price range in the area we want, so we are sure it is Heavenly Father leading us to other things, some days I get really mad that we have not stayed anywhere long to plant our feet firmly but at the same time it has allowed us to touch our people and teach people about our children and the blessing the are.
This time we have been looking at places we have been very up front about our kids and the challenges that they bring with them, because for some reason I felt this important this time, not sure why but sometimes you follow the spirit and learn later, Sat we got the chance to look at 2 places 1 I really loved and the other I would have been okay never to hear back from type thing....And then we went for dinner just David and I which was nice and then we went to a movie, I have not cried so much in a movie in a long time, I would recommend anyone going to see it, it was my sister's keeper totally different thing this family suffers from but at the same point how you deal with it all is not any different if that makes sense.....So David and I were able to talk and look at where our live is and where we are going and how we want things to be again....And as I sat and cried I knew there was someone I was forgetting among it all....it was really myself, I have been so consumed with the kids and with David I have forgot me...and as I stress myself to the max about moving again, I forget about me...and then we forget about us, as a couple we have just coasted again for a few months again.... so here is trying to find a new place so I can find me again, and not lock myself or my kids up anymore....I need some happiness in my life again...I am praying hard the Heavenly Father will show us to the right place and let the right person now, that this is what we NEED! I am so tired, I just need a little bit of sunshine in my life!
On a up note, David starts working 4 hours a day with Glenn at his store starting tomorrow so that is exciting, it is not his normal job yet, but this is the road to a start!
This time we have been looking at places we have been very up front about our kids and the challenges that they bring with them, because for some reason I felt this important this time, not sure why but sometimes you follow the spirit and learn later, Sat we got the chance to look at 2 places 1 I really loved and the other I would have been okay never to hear back from type thing....And then we went for dinner just David and I which was nice and then we went to a movie, I have not cried so much in a movie in a long time, I would recommend anyone going to see it, it was my sister's keeper totally different thing this family suffers from but at the same point how you deal with it all is not any different if that makes sense.....So David and I were able to talk and look at where our live is and where we are going and how we want things to be again....And as I sat and cried I knew there was someone I was forgetting among it all....it was really myself, I have been so consumed with the kids and with David I have forgot me...and as I stress myself to the max about moving again, I forget about me...and then we forget about us, as a couple we have just coasted again for a few months again.... so here is trying to find a new place so I can find me again, and not lock myself or my kids up anymore....I need some happiness in my life again...I am praying hard the Heavenly Father will show us to the right place and let the right person now, that this is what we NEED! I am so tired, I just need a little bit of sunshine in my life!
On a up note, David starts working 4 hours a day with Glenn at his store starting tomorrow so that is exciting, it is not his normal job yet, but this is the road to a start!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
summer!
I would love to say that summer has been great! but that would be a LIE.....it has been a hard transitation and let me tell you I will be glad to have some routine back in my life, I am going to order my program that I have wanted for almost 3 yrs now by the end of the month so I that I can get life ogranized the program I want is...boardmaker, now some of you would not know what that is because you have never had to use it but it is a program that allows you to use a visual picture to tell kids what they need to do step by step type thing....for Dallin the visual cues are soooooooooo important, he is so much calmer with with them, and we are looking at still getting him the ipod touch to put some pictures on so he can talk with others when he has the lack of words he needs....Dallin has come along ways but still has a long ways to go...I have learned to totally love the simple things about Dallin the smelling/ picking of flowers the drawing on everything....the loves he is so sincere when he tells you he loves you....I am so excited to homeschool him next year, I think he will trully learn the meaning to loving life!
Joshua has struggled as well with summer, he loves have his routine as well....I am so excited for him to go to providence I am hoping this is the year they will figure him out totally...he has been sitting on the fence for 3 yrs now...I know he is different, I have a strong sense of what I think is going on but sadly the medical people and I are not always seeing eye to eye on this all....so here we wait again for more testing for him...I hope one day this will all be calmer...
Sara, my amazing Sara, we had her speech assement done, a bit ago and paied out of pocket for it as it is so long to get aything done here in Calgary but they gave her the moderate-severe language delay and for some reason i was okay with this one, it is 3rd is a charm type thing.....but as I have gone through the summer waiting to hear if she gets into school which the final answer is not till the 17th of Aug, I have prayed that she will get the one year of school and be good....her social skills are amazing, i am learning more and more she is more like a "nomral" child but just has a language delay, and actually since doing the assessment her language has come up along ways....she is trying so hard to talk and get things through to us, it is AMAZING.....and okay the part that is about to drive me up the wall now is WHY? WHY? WHY? I have never had this before and let me tell you i don't feel like I missed out on anything up to this point...:) I know that is bad, but being asked why about everything can drive a person crazy!
I do love my childern they are teaching me so much right now, I have more patiance then I ever thought I would have....but I am trully loving it this week!
Joshua has struggled as well with summer, he loves have his routine as well....I am so excited for him to go to providence I am hoping this is the year they will figure him out totally...he has been sitting on the fence for 3 yrs now...I know he is different, I have a strong sense of what I think is going on but sadly the medical people and I are not always seeing eye to eye on this all....so here we wait again for more testing for him...I hope one day this will all be calmer...
Sara, my amazing Sara, we had her speech assement done, a bit ago and paied out of pocket for it as it is so long to get aything done here in Calgary but they gave her the moderate-severe language delay and for some reason i was okay with this one, it is 3rd is a charm type thing.....but as I have gone through the summer waiting to hear if she gets into school which the final answer is not till the 17th of Aug, I have prayed that she will get the one year of school and be good....her social skills are amazing, i am learning more and more she is more like a "nomral" child but just has a language delay, and actually since doing the assessment her language has come up along ways....she is trying so hard to talk and get things through to us, it is AMAZING.....and okay the part that is about to drive me up the wall now is WHY? WHY? WHY? I have never had this before and let me tell you i don't feel like I missed out on anything up to this point...:) I know that is bad, but being asked why about everything can drive a person crazy!
I do love my childern they are teaching me so much right now, I have more patiance then I ever thought I would have....but I am trully loving it this week!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
all in a mornings work....
I am thought I would add this.....it was my status on facbook last week....but it shows a true morning....
all in a mornings work.....deal with one meltdown because Aid told him to get dressed, get another child off top bunk, fully dress him because he is refusing to get dressed or do anything, deal with a screaming child that tripped and bumped her head into the wall bit her lip and has blood running down her face.....breakfast went okay then meltdowns getting snacks and meltdowns going out the door......all before 10am!
all in a mornings work.....deal with one meltdown because Aid told him to get dressed, get another child off top bunk, fully dress him because he is refusing to get dressed or do anything, deal with a screaming child that tripped and bumped her head into the wall bit her lip and has blood running down her face.....breakfast went okay then meltdowns getting snacks and meltdowns going out the door......all before 10am!
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