Sunday, June 20, 2010

everyday angels

"I have spoken . . . of heavenly help, of angels dispatched to bless us in time of need. But when we speak of those who are instruments in the hand of God, we are reminded that not all angels are from the other side of the veil. Some of them we walk with and talk with—here, now, every day. Some of them reside in our own neighborhoods. Some of them gave birth to us, and in my case, one of them consented to marry me. Indeed heaven never seems closer than when we see the love of God manifested in the kindness and devotion of people so good and so pure that angelic is the only word that comes to mind."


Jeffrey R. Holland, "The Ministry of Angels," Ensign, Nov. 2008, 30


I am so thankful for some good friends, I need to say Thank you.

I love being able to sit and just talk with good friends, we dont get to do it as often as what I would like right now as Shelly is in Darwell(I think almost 2hrs from Edmonton) and Katrina in St.Albert and us in Calgary so not like we can all just hop in the car and go to the park and let the kids play and just talk and I miss that so much. I am so looking forward to the fact that we are all going to be back in the same city soon.

I am thankful though that my friends so listen to me complain about my life and the struggles that are going on there, it is nice to have them just listen or chat on MSN to say I know it is tough but it will get better! I know life is tough at times but we all learn and grow through it all.......

Thank you again for good friends

Saturday, June 19, 2010

our trip to Cardston

Some sadness comes with this day, today will probably be one of the last times for awhile that we will go to Cardston, The Alberta Temple holds a special place in my heart as that was were David and I got married, and we have gone back many times but with the plans to move back to Edmonton it would be pointless to travel all that way when there is a temple in that city. The Edmonton Temple does also hold a special place in my heart as that was the first temple David and I went in other than to do baptisms.

We got up at 6am to get there on time, the kids pretty good with it, I think we were more tired then them, they were just so excited to go to the temple, I am so glad that they at such a young age now that this is place they want to be able to go to…..
The kids all played with there primary leaders well the parents went inside, it was about 2hrs we were inside but when we found the kids they were still super happy…..we had a ward picture taken and then went for lunch.

After we were done lunch David and I took some pictures of the kids…….and then someone took a family photo for us, and as we walked back to the van I looked and laughed…..Joshua was missing….so off to try and do a take 2 so we could have 1 family picture at the cardston temple!


It was a great and amazing day I was glad for a little break!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

rain rain go away

I am not a total fan of rain all the time, I like a good thunderstorm but days of rain makes me crazy and my kids crazy!
Though my favortie part of rain is the washing of things, just like a new start...
makes the grass greener
gets rid of dirt
the trees and the plants stand a little taller.
the farmers love the rain, but i think for even them sometimes there is just to much rain

I got a phone call from the MLA office today, as they are helping try to deal with the whole WCB thing with us trying to move to Edmonton, today her message was the didnt get the fax.....I fax alot and no one else has had that problem so kinda strange but glad someone is on our side trying to help so I dont feel like I am totally losing my mind, only a little bit now.... I have been emailing people and trying to get things working for us to move slowly it is all falling into place, now to figure out where to live and what we are suppose to do and that, I wish it would be a bit easier but I am waiting to hear back from home ed to see if we can move back into that housing corporation, I really hope so as it would be cheaper rent and I would not have to work, which all on its own is an amazing thing as I need that break so much right now!

Monday, June 14, 2010

Different is okay.....but sometimes it is just hard....

“Hold on thy way. … Fear not … , for God shall be with you forever and ever”

That everyone, including, and perhaps especially, the righteous, will be called upon to face trying times
When that happens we can sometimes fear that God has abandoned us, and we might be left, at least for a time, to wonder when our troubles will ever end. As individuals, as families, as communities, and as nations, probably everyone has had or will have an occasion to feel as Joseph Smith felt when he cried from the depth and discouragement of his confinement: “O God, where art thou? … How long shall thy hand be stayed … ? Yea, O Lord, how long shall [thy people] suffer … before … thy bowels be moved with compassion toward them?” (D&C 121:1–3).


Whenever these moments of our extremity come, we must not succumb to the fear that God has abandoned us or that He does not hear our prayers. He does hear us. He does see us. He does love us. When we are in dire circumstances and want to cry, “Where art Thou?” it is imperative that we remember He is right there with us—where He has always been! We must continue to believe, continue to have faith, continue to pray and plead with heaven, even if we feel for a time our prayers are not heard and that God has somehow gone away. He is there. Our prayers are heard. And when we weep He and the angels of heaven weep with us.
When lonely, cold, hard times come, we have to endure, we have to continue, we have to persist. That was the Savior’s message in the parable of the importuning widow (see Luke 18:1–8; see also Luke 11:5–10). Keep knocking on that door. Keep pleading. In the meantime, know that God hears your cries and knows your distress. He is your Father, and you are His child
When what has to be has been and when what lessons to be learned have been learned, it will be for us as it was for the Prophet Joseph. Just at the time he felt most alone and distant from heaven’s ear was the very time he received the wonderful ministration of the Spirit and the glorious answers that came from his Father in Heaven:
“My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;
And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes” (D&C 121:7–8).

Even though seemingly unjust circumstances may be heaped upon us, and even though unkind and unmerited things may be done to us—perhaps by those we consider enemies but also, in some cases, by those whom we thought were friends—nevertheless, through it all, God is with us.

We are not alone in our little prisons here. When suffering, we may in fact be nearer to God than we’ve ever been in our entire lives. That knowledge can turn every such situation into a would-be temple.


Regarding our earthly journey, the Lord has promised, “I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up” (D&C 84:88). That is an everlasting declaration of God’s love and care for us, including—and perhaps especially—in times of trouble.

Sometimes I wish life were easier and then I read things like this and think wow I have it easy. I do have easier than some people. Life could always be worse. As I looked back on my day today I realized there was many things I failed at, I was not patient, I was not calm.....except at one moment when I knew I had to be....as Dallin sat on the floor telling me I was doing it all wrong, this is not how you play the game he said, I sat there saying Dallin different is okay.....to which he said no it is not and then knocked the game over so I had to start again, you would think that would have made me angry it didnt the whole time all I could say was different is okay, (why is different okay for him but not for me) he continued to get mad, as his aid tried helping and he got madder with him, the only thought that trully crossed my mind was am I going to get kicked in the head or head butted today for making things different? I wanted him to see it was all going to be okay, after about 15mins he was laughing again and playing but the whole time was different is okay. I know question is different okay?  I really want to say yes, I want to know that tomorrow is going to be okay, I am the type of person if I knew the end and worked back I would be very happy, though sadly that doesnt happen in life does it!
I was happy in Calgary, I was making some friends slowly and yes I mean slowly starting to call this home, but at that same point I was always saying well Edmonton has this and Calgary doesnt, I never did take some of those differences, espically when it came to school we still used the Edmonton public system as I was upset at the lack of a system had for Calgary and kids with Autism. I know that "different" was not okay, it was always in the back of my mind.
I was glad for the fact my kids did get to know there grandparents a bit more than I ever did, and that difference will forever stand out in my mind and a good choice, they trully do love there grandparents and Charile.
The difference of having a temple close by and the temple you have to drive to....it was a sad thing, but I learned I missed driving by it every day, we didnt use it like we should have but I learned the difference if it being there and not being there, I miss that peace that comes from even being on the temple grounds.
The difference of friends being close and friends being apart is a HUGE thing, I miss the friends who trully do support me in my crazy life, the friends I can call when I am down and they will just listen. A good girls night out is always needed everyonce in awhile.
The difference of my kids playing with kids who love them vs kids who dont so much and I have to always teach my kids to be nice even when others are not so nice.
The difference of just Calgary to Edmonton, there both are very very different from each other but both have things I trully love that the other does not have.....like ummmmm the ZOO......but then Edmonton had the Ledg grounds, and heck there is NOTHING in CAlgary like that.

Different is okay.....but sometimes it is just hard....
more patience in suffereing
more faith in the Savior
more joy in his service
more meekness in trial
more blessed and holy more like the Savior
sometimes we just need to step back a little and relook at everything!

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Just for Fun! and we had a TON of fun!

In conjunction with Calgary Cerebral Palsy Association
Presenting: Light Up a Child’s Life
An evening of fun at Calaway Park that allows children with special needs an opportunity to enjoy a night filled with unlimited rides, shows and attrac-tions.
DATE: Friday June 4th 2010
TIME: 5:00 – 9:00 PM
COST: FREE



Thank you to the Wonderful Aid's who came and help make this day even more fun for the kids (and espically me....as I get so sick on to many rides)
It is has been a please and a joy to work with these two guys, they are both doing AMAZING work with the boys! Dallins worker has been around a little longer but they are both great and make the boys smile and learn so much!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

the thoughts of a mom

As a mom we all want is best for our kids, having a child that needs extra helps adds to all this fun, Dallin was a child with a regressive disorder of Autism, meaning he spoke early did everything right and then all the sudden he lost it all. we thought it was the new baby coming home that caused this, later to learn after the second baby to come into the home with him that there was still no change, each day and each time it broke my heart a bit more...I questioned God and what he was doing alot, I was wondering what he was wanting from me. I thought this would all get better, Dallin did 3 yrs of early education and specialized services. Did it help yes, but how many times has my heart broke in this time, many.....as we watch him gain skills and do so great and then it seems as though he loose them....we keep saying oh it is just a bad day and tomorrow will be better, is tomorrow better? not always most days I still feel the tears sitting in my eyes as I deal with him, it breaks my heart I want him so happy but he is not if it is not his way, and how hard is that when you are the oldest and the others aren’t that far behind you.....the perfectionism is coming out a TON lately and I am not sure how to work with that as I am not that type of person, well I do like some of it that way but not EVERY little thing. I am finding it hard to find that balance, as I work with him, I do love homeschooling because I get to help him more than any other teacher would and I can help him the way he needs but others think I am not giving him the same ways to grow......is being picked on a way to grow? And after having 2 major meltdowns this week and it is only Tuesday....I know it is going to be a GREAT week.


I sit here thinking about what I am suppose to do.....I want the best for him, I want him to be the best he can be but I am not sure anymore what that is, what I am suppose to be doing......my heart says homeschooling is good, and then there is a huge part of my that would like to allow him to in the school system even for a little bit, but he wont be going in the Calgary system so what does that mean? it would mean a move back to Edmonton.....but we are not sure what they right choice is on that so many tough choices in the next bit I wish this was a bit easier

Sunday, March 14, 2010

take a look back as I have and will still be adding new stuff

I have done alot of updates tonight, so have a look I put new stuff on all the way back to Christmas.....still more to add just should go to bed sometime tonight!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

A cold winter in Calgary

I have put together some of the photos I have from this winter here in Calgary as many wanted to see how much snow we got! Hope you enjoy

potty dance

Hopefully the link stays right......I thought this was cute as we are having the little potty dance with Sara I am glad to be done with diapers!

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Friday, March 12, 2010

I am sorry if I have offended you!

Lately, it seems that I have offended people so easily, that is not my purpose in life…..I love the people that are in my life. I need them, the support is important. I am sorry if you feel I have!


Know that I don’t always think about what people will think when it comes to my comments or my feelings, I do try but please know I am human and a lot on my plate some days I need to vent.

I know I personally have let me offend me and it was dumb thing to do, because they didn’t even know as I have never said anything! That is a downfall of mine I walk away most days too easily, I should stand up more but at that same point will it matter in the long run?

I DO love my life! It is so important to me, I love my family and I know this is the path we are suppose to be on and things are getting easier all the time as I get myself more organized and in control of what is going on(then I will get another curve ball) but I am honestly and truly in love with my life! I know my ramblings don’t always prove that….but I do, and I am glad the our Heavenly Father trusted me to have this life and these trials at this point in my life, I know someone I am being a true example to others!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

I did it!

I did I changed my blog tell me what you think of it!

playing with my blog!

okay I was playing today trying to make my blog cooler and in turn lost lots so I will try again later! any suggestion totally open for some, I wanted 3 coloums but cant seem to make it work

Monday, March 1, 2010

8yrs baby! Love You!

8 yrs ago I married my best friend.......memorys off that day are still so fresh in my mind, it is hard to believe it has gone by this quick...we have a had lot of fun and happy moments and then the most of happy tears and sad tears over all it has been a AMAZING 8yrs and looking forward to many more......I love you David and I could not see life with you!

(here is our Wedding song)