Week #2 is done!

Well this was a little longer week I was going to do individual days but then decided that was more work then i had in me! I know that sounds sad, but I am still sick I was getting worse in the middle of the week and thought I was really was going to die, my hat goes off to single parents now I really don't know how some of them do it this is the hardest thing I have had to do this far and I only have 2 of my 3 kids I will explain more as the week goes on!


Monday:
we came back from Calgary and 1 or both of the boys were awake the whole trip which made for fun, i much prefer them sleeping because then you don't get the I want when you can't do anything about it! but we made it home about 9ish Joshua decided he needed to stay up till 11pm and even then he still slept in my bed just so i could go to sleep, Dallin told me on the way home this was the worst day ever he was very sad, I am so sad that he feels that way but at the same time I know this is hard on us all because we have never been apart from each other this much.


Tuesday:
The boys went back to school and therapy, really our normal life I got to pack for about a hr well they were at therapy which was nice I wish I could be doing more packing but hard when I am never really home.


Wednesday:

I dropped of Joshua at school and the Dallin and I were off to the grey nuns hospital for his next EEG to see if they could see anything going on with his straying spells.....met Grandma and Grandpa Mousir there to give them Joshua's seat incase we were not done in time, saw Sara for a few minutes and then we were off and they were off, Dallin was very sad and cryed most of the way up to his apt. and we sat and waited, now most people don't go to the dr office as much as me but can someone please explain to me, you have a apt at 9:30 why you don't get intill almost 10 I think I have wasted many many many hrs and paid alot of money in hospital lots for parking to sit and wait! Anyways, I must thank my Heavenly Father the best tech, I was so dreading this test because I left the last one shacking so bad from trying to hold dallin still and knowing that I was so sick I knew I did not have that strength this time to hold him that tight for almost a hr! but she took her time and explain every step except the scraping part put i understood that and you know what that was the only time through the whole test that i had to old him tight and even then i just rubbed his hand with deep pressure and he relaxed really well he was amazing and at the end of the test he even said bye to the lady WOW he is growing up he hates people touching his head but he did wonderful!

Then we can back home and waited for Grandma and Grandpa to come with the other 2, it trully is a different world when they are all together, Sara really trys to get everyones goats and make them scream i know part of that is the age but oh my it sent me flying into angry as I am so stressed and then the screaming and crying is just to much right now so I told Grandma and Grandpa they could take her back for a bit longer to see how much packing and all that I can get done, and I think it is important for David to have her there too because it gives him something to keep his mind busy! So grandma and grandpa and us went out shopping and then to dinner and back home for sleep time and then they were going back in the morning to Calgary.


Thursday:

We had the field trip to Mcleod Farm for the boys early ed school program, it was a really horrible day to be going it rained so bad and made for not so fun of a trip mainly for the parents who are wimps as the kids for the most part enjoyed themselves! anyways here is a few pictures from the day! Angie and Tamara from Achieve came Angie has been Dallin's aid 2 times a week since Dec they have such a great report together and work really well together it is fun to watch and Tamara has been working with Joshua since the beginning of may and they are having fun learning each other.





this was the first part feeding the ducks, the little white and brown dog there was fun he would let the ducks get really close and then he would run and scare them all away, the kids thought it was so funny!

The boys really struggled with the horse ride today, Joshua I am pretty sure it was because I didn't go with him and I am not sure about Dallin just was not prepared enough not sure but they tryed it and that is all that matters!

And then the feeding of animals which they really loved so much fun to watch them grow up and try new things in this world that they are totally unsure about way to go boys!

Friday:

A normal day of School dropped the boys off went and did a bit of shopping without them as it makes it sooooooooooo much easier! and then stopped off at Lisa and Mario's to drop off the discovery toys order and talked with Lisa it is so nice to see someone else struggling at times, I know that sounds bad but it is so nice to know sometimes you are not the only one trying to come up above water for a breath of air! this is one family i will trully miss when we move to Calgary that have been a awsome support for me and what I am going through with everything in my life!

Therapy at home was a bit short today as we had a dr's apt for Dallin to discuss the EEG, now remember how I said I paid for 30mins of waiting time earlier this week, this apt I paid for about 1 1/2 of waiting time it is so dumb! Anyways they did not have the results back but they do not think it is something on a high list of our worries as of yet but to just keep watching his spells and start to take a bit better notes of what is going on and then we will go from there! wow that was not what I wanted to hear but they did not have the report from wed, he said if there was anything he would let me know right away if not to come back in 3 months! and off we go.

Sat:

we did nothing exciting just sort of had a relaxing day of sorting toys and getting ready to pack it all up! oh the fun of life :)

Sun:

We did not go to church today, 1. because it is hard to take both boys to a new place by myself and 2. because I did not know where the stake centre is because I have never been to this one ever, not a good excuse but they are mine we just really sat and relaxed again today, and truth be knowen for the most part I am starting to feel a bit better from the rest which is a good thing!

Well that is week 2 done and now onto week #3 and all the crazy packing hoping to be done by Tuesday next week and have a few days to clean and close off rooms before we move! wish me luck

Week #1 done!

Well week one went and it wasn't as bad as it could have been I did my last 3 of 4 shifts at superstore, I now in one way know what it is like to be a single mom, as I had someone put one own kids to bed those 3 nights it was hard and cause I was closing and really didn't get till almost 1 or 1:30in the morning and then had to get up and live my real life I burnt out and got sick and be friday I thought I was going to die, I had a 2hr nap well the boys watched a movie, it is hard not to be able to have a sick day at all, I know mom's don't normally get one but when there is no one to help there is nothing to be done but suck it up and move on which can be super hard. So Sat we went to let's play indoor playground park for brenna quist birthday party which was alot of fun the boys had alot of fun chasing each other. Sometimes it is hard to not judge others and I tell this story only to make myself feel a bit better I think but I watch this mom and tears were fighting to stay in and many times I had to walk away, This little girl is about 3, she is the cousin of brenna and as I watched her play my mind kept going back to Dallin and Joshua, happy to just play by herself, sort of lost in space you could see you with the look of looking for something and it broke my heart to see where she is and to know that if I see what is true this mom has this very very long path that I am on, that path I trully would not wish on my worst enemy I am thankful for what I have gone through and the things it has taught me but there is a TON of work there and it is so hard on any parent to watch there child just not fit in just that same way to always know they are different in there own ways, and as the day went on we went to eat cake in this little room and this mom wanted so bad for this daughter to sit with the other kids and watched her scream and cry and try to break out of this room because it was hurting her so much to sit there and the mom sitting crying on the floor with her pleading for her to come back to the table or she couldn't have cake, my heart aced as I watched this cause I did the same fight and all I wanted to do was scream just let her eat the cake on the floor and be glad she is in the room! it is so hard to be a by stander because I was watched people tell me how I thought it should be and how hard that was on me, as a mom when you are struggling that much you don't need someone telling you how to be that child's mom I hate it now to this day when someone
tells me what I am doing!
Anyways new topic as I could go on all day about that! me and the boys drove to Calgary after that to spend the long weekend with David and Sara it was nice to spend time with them we did not do alot as I felt so sick and worn out but it was nice to have that time together and for me to be able to have a little extra sleep to try to get healthy and be able to come back and deal with my life again here. It was hard leaving David and Sara there again for another week but this is what is best right now for all of us only a few more weeks....okay about 2 and half more weeks! the move day is for June 7 well that would be the walk out day to do the pack the truck on the Friday and leave first thing on the Saturday morning :)
well that is all for now!

Happy Mother's Day!

Well this morning I slept in, and it was nice and then the kids and David brought me breakfeast in bed, how sweet! then off to church we went we only stayed for the first hr as we planned to have some family time before Sara and David went to Calgary so David could start his new job on Monday, Grandma was awsome and said she would take Sara the first week which is nice because it gives me some me time well the kids are in school and me time to pack!

So we went for lunch as a family one last time and then we got to the greyhound station 1hr early and let me tell you with 3 young kids a hour is a long time :S ended up buying so battires as mine were dead so that they had something to do other than run around so I have about 100 pictures of funny things some good and some bad.....here are some of the good!

not sure where Joshua really was as there is not many of him but he was there!

many many pictures that had my van in it outside!

David and Sara about to get on the bus! it was funny Sara was so excited and laughing cause she got to go with Daddy and then just as David was about to get get on the bus she was yelling "help" I hope she is good for her Daddy

Watching the bus driving away! and I look back and I have 2 sleeping boys, they were so sad that they were not going with Daddy, that a few tears were shed and few howls and this what I still have after moving them into the house.

a end to a new beginning

Today is the last day of Classic Landscape in Edmonton for David, it is a sad day and a happy day for him many emotions for him because he has been there for 3 years has alot of friends and loved what he did, but as the years went on he got treated worse and wosre and felt like a slave.... I have watched how he has growen so much there and become a better person though all the stuff he went through, for all the times Jack yelled at him for something someone else did and he took it and walked away and vented out after but not at jack many times before he would have just yelled at his boss and quit, so good job David for being patient and understanding of what you needed to learn and hopefully it will continue forward in your new job with Peter Hughes Landscape. I do love you and I will miss you it will be a long 5 weeks of being a single parent.

when it rains it pours sometimes

so when we had our snow storm a couple weeks ago, we got a flat tire, so david tired to take off the old one to put on the dumby one to get it fix and next thing we knew he snapped a bolt :S oh was I so happy, anyways the guy told us we could wait for awhile so Wendy booked into the shop when we were down in Calgary for thomas SWEET all good, the day we go to leave for Calgary the noise on the drivers side at the back get a ton louder than it was so when we stop to get David at classic I got out and looked, our shock had broke well at least the bolt, so we male some phone calls to see if we could drive like this, yep just do it slow and safely so thats what we do! we get to Calgary and stop at the mousir house and the shock completely drops so we must wait till monday to get it all fix, it goes in monday morning and Wendy gets a phone call well I was out at the schools saying the shock is okay it is just the bolt so they are going to fix that but my brakes are pretty much gone! WHAT how I got no warning it makes me so angery cause I drive so much and yet I had no idea, anyways they fixed that and then we had 2 tires that need to be replaced as well all said and done alot done to our van in a short time, without Wendy and Philp I am not sure how we would have done this all as we did not have the extra money in our back pocket, all we can say is thank you right now and I am not sure that is enough for everything they keep doing for us to help us out through our crazy little journey.

the job interviews

so we started....okay David and I slept started his interviews on sat morning at 7:30am :S I the wonderful wife put out 9 resumes and with in 48 business hrs DAvid had 5 interviews on this weekend as we were in Calgary for Thomas, We know we need to be there when he has put out probably close to 50 here in Edmonton since christmas and nothing and then so many in Calgary in such a short time, David felt overwhlemmed at so many offers of interviews but at the same point it was so great because him the feeling of I am worht something and someone is excitied that I know what I am doing.......
So sat morning he went to....all year round landscaping, and he was really excited about that offer as it was really good but he was like I have some more so I will get back to you, and then he went to elemntal yard landscape and after a hour interview she said she could not hire him because she did not have a postion good enough for him and could not pay him what he was worth! wow he felt awsome.
Then monday he did the rest of his interviews, 1st to foothills landscape...who did not have a postion again for him that they felt would match him, then off to Peter Hughes, David said this one was great the guy was awsome very very family geared which we need right now! and then off to the last one Prestige Landscape, they had a spot but not as much money as the other offers so David came home and we talked and decided it was off to Peter Huges he goes, so he called all year round back to say he made his choice and he told him thank you and if you change your mind give me a call so great job David! so proud of you :)

A Day out with Thomas the Train!

Today, we the most exciting day for the kids, today we went to Calgary to Heritage Park to go have a day out with Thommas! They are still buzzing over seeing Thomas as I don't think they really believed that we really were going to see Thomas

WOW 100 posts

so I was going to go write a cool blog about Joshua and then I noticed that this was the 100th post so I thought I would WOW I can't belivie I have that much to say! I love being able to talk about my kids I am not sure how many people read about us but I enjoy looking back and laughing and having a few tears over hard times! The last couple of years have been a huge rollorcoaster and I know we are not even close to it being a gentle ride yet, but at the same point I am okay with that, i have been working at superstore this week, today was actually my 4th shift and I thought it would be great for me to get out and have a break but let me tell you there is really no break doing the customer service area, people are so rude and most need a boot to the head, and I know members are not perfect either but it is sad when you trully feel like someone is mader at you just because you are a member and not moving quicker and helping the above everyone else, we will see how this goes, I am at this point not thinking it is worth the money or my time cause I have come home all 4 days more angry then when I went there, and it has taught me to look at my own life a little different! Heavenly Father knew I could do this and my number 1 job in life right now is to raise my family that is my full time job and my part time job it is not one I get paid for in a dollar value but it is trully the best job in the world I love my kids and I love my husband!

I am going to put Joshua's cool picture here, Dallin's in home worker left 2 dinosaurs on friday for them to play with and Joshy felt the big one was hungry and where do we go when we are hungry

oh many bowls of ice cream do you need....

the start of the eveing what a funny girl she is!

so superstore had these little icecreams on sell for 1.00 for dollar days so we picked up a few as a treat for the kids after dinner we can each child a little bowl full and both Dallin and Joshua had what they wanted and then this is what happened!

how many bowls did she clean up?

but she enjoyed herself so much and was sad when it was all gone!

two for the day!

Before going outside!

so David took the boys out to play and Sara wanted to go for a bit but that did not last long and this is why

Otherwise the snow is coming down really hard here and the wind is getting worse.....but the boys had so much fun! so here is there fun afternoon with there day

the watching of the boys playing!

Sara and I did a couple videos of the boys from inside where it was warm!

David should learn to be more careful with these kids :) but lucky they enjoy the snow which makes this so much fun....

I so love my kids and my husband, it is fun to watch them play and grow together, I am going to enjoy watching David learn different things well I am working nights, I know the first bit will be tough for all but I know this is something I need to do so I can truly learn to enjoy my life again, I spend alot of time working and focusing on my kids that I have forgot about me! and I need to remember me and send sometime on me every once in awhile!

a sunday snow day

this is what we woke up too and it is still going!

With my back not doing so well and it snowing again we decided to stay home today and have a family day! mainly i really wanted to sleep and not do much to see if my back would feel better but as I layed here I decided I wanted some monster cookies! so we made some and all the kids helped and loved it I made a double batch but when you are making them big it does not go very far and way this is some pictures from the morning!

Sara eating cookie dough not to sure how this all works yet, and the boys helping make cookies

Sara watching she was so excited!

The final results of our cookies......

when you don't hear kids after cookies are out of the oven this is what you make find!

I am Selfish!

I know that this may come a shock to some but I am in a selfish mood latley and here is why......I know that we are suppose to go back to calgary, to be closer to our families
1. to help my mom with her health a bit as much as I can between my life!
2. to get more support for us, and our kids as I am burnning out alot latley which in turn makes you a BAD mom!
3. for David to be able to live one of his dreams
There are many more reason but those are some of the major ones.

Now for those of you that do know the whole story Philp(my father in law) has been talking about moving for along time now to some small place so he can make lots of money to retire with as that point in there life is coming up! So the other day I got on my street map finder thing that tells me how far and how long it will take to get somewhere and lots of other cool things, well needless to say it made me cry because his close spot is 9hrs and 45 mins a way from calgary and the other place was 14hrs, I knew at this moment the support I would need would be gone because I would not just be able t0 drive for the weekend like we do too Calgary from Edmonton and really this is the family that we have that can come at a drop of the hat and help when we need right now because they have car type thing, being in Calgary would be a bit different because then my parents are there too and could help but still one of my main supports would be gone! I have tried really hard not to say much because I know they need to do what is right for them but at that same point there is a huge part of me yelling out NO YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED, I need you and so do my kids! My kids are finally getting to the point where they are excited when they hear anything to with grandma and grandpa, it just makes me sad to think if they do move even for a couple years it would be a long long couple years.......and there are many other reasons why i do not want them too move but they are all mine, okay this post is all about ME! I am the reason for all things this week! I think a huge part of all of this is just being so burnt out myself and needing that extra set of hands at apts, and driving to different things I just can't do it all and I want to have more time to be able to do more therapy with my kids but that means I need someone else to be helping with my other kids! okay I am going to stop but I am putting in my last comment......WENDY AND PHILP YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO MOVE AWAY FROM US! (I love you and I am sorry it is just my feelings, and I have shed many many tears over the thought of you moving)

Excited

So excited are we to get to go see Thomas, and when the boys totally understand that YES thomas is here it will be so worth it, we are so grateful for Grandma and Grandpa Mousir who made it so we were able to go as this was more money then we were currently able to afford!
We are grateful for all the do for us, even when we don't say much.





our time is May 3 at 3:40!

PRE-EVENT INFORMATION

What is Day Out With Thomas™?Day Out With Thomas is a family event that offers children and their grownups the opportunity to ride with classic storybook friend Thomas the Tank Engine™ at heritage railroads nationwide. Parents, grandparents and siblings join their aspiring engineers in the fun. The Day Out With Thomas experience will engineer miles of smiles for the whole family and introduce a new generation to the timeless excitement of railroading.


Who is Thomas the Tank Engine?Since Thomas the Tank Engine left the depot more than 60 years ago, this Really Useful Engine and his Island of Sodor friends have chugged their way into the hearts of preschoolers and grownups worldwide. Based on The Railway Series of classic stories authored by a father who loved trains and wanted a shared experience with his son, Thomas & Friends™ is a rite of passage that inspires the imagination while teaching the life lessons of friendship, exploration and cooperation.


What are the appropriate ages for Day Out With Thomas?Day Out With Thomas is a family event that welcomes passengers of all ages.


Where is the event?Heritage Park Historical Village in Calgary, Alberta.


When is the event?May 3, 4 & 10, 11, 2008.


What is included in the ticket price?A ticket for Day Out With Thomas includes the train ride with Thomas the Tank Engine, as well as a variety of Thomas & Friends themed entertainment, including Storytelling and Video Viewing, Temporary Tattoos of Island of Sodor friends, and an Imagination Station with Arts & Crafts and more. Guests will also have the opportunity to meet Sir Topham Hatt, the Controller of the Railway on the Island of Sodor.


Are discount tickets available?There are no discount tickets available for Day Out With Thomas.


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Will Sir Topham Hatt be there?Yes, Sir Topham Hatt will take time away from his busy schedule as Controller of the Railway on the Island of Sodor to meet and take pictures with guests.

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What times do trains depart?The first train departs at 9am and every 40-minutes following with the last train departing at 4:20pm.


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Is there assigned seating on the train?Tickets are assigned by time and passenger car. Guests must be together during boarding if they wish to sit together on the train.


How long is the train ride?The train ride is approximately 20-minutes long.


Are you limited to just one train ride?There is one train ride per ticket.


What if there is inclement weather? Day Out With Thomas events take place rain or shine.


Are cameras allowed?Absolutely! Guests are encouraged to capture their Day Out With Thomas memories for their photo album.


Will there be food available?Yes, there will be a number of food services available.


Are strollers permitted?Day Out With Thomas is a family event that welcomes guests of all ages. There is even a designated area for “stroller parking” during the train ride.


How do I find out about other events?You can find the complete Day Out With Thomas 2008 schedule by clicking on http://www.thomasandfriends.com/ on the Day Out With Thomas main page.

hopefully the last bit of snow for the year!

I thought since there was a bit more snow and it was warm we should get out and enjoy it because there is a different type of play when there is no snow to throw at others! The kids enjoyed going for about a 10min walk on the sleds and then they slid down the small hill for awhile till they were wet and tired!

here is a couple movie clips too!

Spring Break.....and a new swing

I really want to know why they call spring break a break, it is more work then ever to have your kids home and trying to keep everyone happy and the fighting down to a min. But for the over all it was a good week the boys were happy with the swing that Bonnie there PT at school lent us for the week, they have got great use out of it and I can tell it has made a huge difference to have some change, I think it is cause they are so use to there gym at school changing all the time so I am on the look out for another good swing idea.....or something cool to hang that would help as a camling tool, as ways this is what the basment looked like this week!

(the tote is actually a rice bin to play in I think next it will be sand!)

I know my kids are a blessing they add so much to my life! and they are helping me to see the things that are the most important in life!

I have also added a video of them in the basment as it is kinda fun to watch them go around at times.