WOW 100 posts

so I was going to go write a cool blog about Joshua and then I noticed that this was the 100th post so I thought I would WOW I can't belivie I have that much to say! I love being able to talk about my kids I am not sure how many people read about us but I enjoy looking back and laughing and having a few tears over hard times! The last couple of years have been a huge rollorcoaster and I know we are not even close to it being a gentle ride yet, but at the same point I am okay with that, i have been working at superstore this week, today was actually my 4th shift and I thought it would be great for me to get out and have a break but let me tell you there is really no break doing the customer service area, people are so rude and most need a boot to the head, and I know members are not perfect either but it is sad when you trully feel like someone is mader at you just because you are a member and not moving quicker and helping the above everyone else, we will see how this goes, I am at this point not thinking it is worth the money or my time cause I have come home all 4 days more angry then when I went there, and it has taught me to look at my own life a little different! Heavenly Father knew I could do this and my number 1 job in life right now is to raise my family that is my full time job and my part time job it is not one I get paid for in a dollar value but it is trully the best job in the world I love my kids and I love my husband!

I am going to put Joshua's cool picture here, Dallin's in home worker left 2 dinosaurs on friday for them to play with and Joshy felt the big one was hungry and where do we go when we are hungry

oh many bowls of ice cream do you need....

the start of the eveing what a funny girl she is!

so superstore had these little icecreams on sell for 1.00 for dollar days so we picked up a few as a treat for the kids after dinner we can each child a little bowl full and both Dallin and Joshua had what they wanted and then this is what happened!

how many bowls did she clean up?

but she enjoyed herself so much and was sad when it was all gone!

two for the day!

Before going outside!

so David took the boys out to play and Sara wanted to go for a bit but that did not last long and this is why

Otherwise the snow is coming down really hard here and the wind is getting worse.....but the boys had so much fun! so here is there fun afternoon with there day

the watching of the boys playing!

Sara and I did a couple videos of the boys from inside where it was warm!

David should learn to be more careful with these kids :) but lucky they enjoy the snow which makes this so much fun....

I so love my kids and my husband, it is fun to watch them play and grow together, I am going to enjoy watching David learn different things well I am working nights, I know the first bit will be tough for all but I know this is something I need to do so I can truly learn to enjoy my life again, I spend alot of time working and focusing on my kids that I have forgot about me! and I need to remember me and send sometime on me every once in awhile!

a sunday snow day

this is what we woke up too and it is still going!

With my back not doing so well and it snowing again we decided to stay home today and have a family day! mainly i really wanted to sleep and not do much to see if my back would feel better but as I layed here I decided I wanted some monster cookies! so we made some and all the kids helped and loved it I made a double batch but when you are making them big it does not go very far and way this is some pictures from the morning!

Sara eating cookie dough not to sure how this all works yet, and the boys helping make cookies

Sara watching she was so excited!

The final results of our cookies......

when you don't hear kids after cookies are out of the oven this is what you make find!

I am Selfish!

I know that this may come a shock to some but I am in a selfish mood latley and here is why......I know that we are suppose to go back to calgary, to be closer to our families
1. to help my mom with her health a bit as much as I can between my life!
2. to get more support for us, and our kids as I am burnning out alot latley which in turn makes you a BAD mom!
3. for David to be able to live one of his dreams
There are many more reason but those are some of the major ones.

Now for those of you that do know the whole story Philp(my father in law) has been talking about moving for along time now to some small place so he can make lots of money to retire with as that point in there life is coming up! So the other day I got on my street map finder thing that tells me how far and how long it will take to get somewhere and lots of other cool things, well needless to say it made me cry because his close spot is 9hrs and 45 mins a way from calgary and the other place was 14hrs, I knew at this moment the support I would need would be gone because I would not just be able t0 drive for the weekend like we do too Calgary from Edmonton and really this is the family that we have that can come at a drop of the hat and help when we need right now because they have car type thing, being in Calgary would be a bit different because then my parents are there too and could help but still one of my main supports would be gone! I have tried really hard not to say much because I know they need to do what is right for them but at that same point there is a huge part of me yelling out NO YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED, I need you and so do my kids! My kids are finally getting to the point where they are excited when they hear anything to with grandma and grandpa, it just makes me sad to think if they do move even for a couple years it would be a long long couple years.......and there are many other reasons why i do not want them too move but they are all mine, okay this post is all about ME! I am the reason for all things this week! I think a huge part of all of this is just being so burnt out myself and needing that extra set of hands at apts, and driving to different things I just can't do it all and I want to have more time to be able to do more therapy with my kids but that means I need someone else to be helping with my other kids! okay I am going to stop but I am putting in my last comment......WENDY AND PHILP YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO MOVE AWAY FROM US! (I love you and I am sorry it is just my feelings, and I have shed many many tears over the thought of you moving)

Excited

So excited are we to get to go see Thomas, and when the boys totally understand that YES thomas is here it will be so worth it, we are so grateful for Grandma and Grandpa Mousir who made it so we were able to go as this was more money then we were currently able to afford!
We are grateful for all the do for us, even when we don't say much.





our time is May 3 at 3:40!

PRE-EVENT INFORMATION

What is Day Out With Thomas™?Day Out With Thomas is a family event that offers children and their grownups the opportunity to ride with classic storybook friend Thomas the Tank Engine™ at heritage railroads nationwide. Parents, grandparents and siblings join their aspiring engineers in the fun. The Day Out With Thomas experience will engineer miles of smiles for the whole family and introduce a new generation to the timeless excitement of railroading.


Who is Thomas the Tank Engine?Since Thomas the Tank Engine left the depot more than 60 years ago, this Really Useful Engine and his Island of Sodor friends have chugged their way into the hearts of preschoolers and grownups worldwide. Based on The Railway Series of classic stories authored by a father who loved trains and wanted a shared experience with his son, Thomas & Friends™ is a rite of passage that inspires the imagination while teaching the life lessons of friendship, exploration and cooperation.


What are the appropriate ages for Day Out With Thomas?Day Out With Thomas is a family event that welcomes passengers of all ages.


Where is the event?Heritage Park Historical Village in Calgary, Alberta.


When is the event?May 3, 4 & 10, 11, 2008.


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How long is the train ride?The train ride is approximately 20-minutes long.


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hopefully the last bit of snow for the year!

I thought since there was a bit more snow and it was warm we should get out and enjoy it because there is a different type of play when there is no snow to throw at others! The kids enjoyed going for about a 10min walk on the sleds and then they slid down the small hill for awhile till they were wet and tired!

here is a couple movie clips too!

Spring Break.....and a new swing

I really want to know why they call spring break a break, it is more work then ever to have your kids home and trying to keep everyone happy and the fighting down to a min. But for the over all it was a good week the boys were happy with the swing that Bonnie there PT at school lent us for the week, they have got great use out of it and I can tell it has made a huge difference to have some change, I think it is cause they are so use to there gym at school changing all the time so I am on the look out for another good swing idea.....or something cool to hang that would help as a camling tool, as ways this is what the basment looked like this week!

(the tote is actually a rice bin to play in I think next it will be sand!)

I know my kids are a blessing they add so much to my life! and they are helping me to see the things that are the most important in life!

I have also added a video of them in the basment as it is kinda fun to watch them go around at times.

school, school here we come!

Well I know that I have been not keeping up so well on this but there is alot going on right now, I am feeling kinds over whelmmed with my life, I am (I say me as David is not emotionally able to go to all the schools with me) trying to choose a school for next year for my boys, now both still are able to get PUF (program unit funding) which pretty much means that they can have there own aid at any place I pick! makes it all easy right NOT! I am stressing alot about this as you want the right place for each child, not the one you get busing too only, in my mind if you have to drive thats what you do!
so for little Joshua as he is going to be 4 he is second year of PUF (you are allowed 3) but this is your last year before kindergarten! so you want the right place to build and shape so you can do kindergarten, even with your own aid but you can do it without it being too much if that makes sense...so I have 2 schools I am trying to pick between for him, now both of these Dallin could go too but it would be a bit different but I will go there..
1. was Beacon Heights.....there instructional focus is "meaningful communication" I have many reason I like this school, they seemed very much on top of things which was nice, it is a smaller school and when I asked if they were allowed extra sensory time, the Principal was like oh yes, if they need it we work it in!
2. was Homesteader.....there instructional focus is "language comprehension" this school was friendly but my instant thought was not right for my boys but they do have some good part about it! so I am still looking at it all, my reason for this was if I compared the 2 schools the first one seems that they would understand Joshua the best and that is sooooooooooooooo important! so David and i will do the school visits together to see if he gets the same feelings that I am!

now for our Dallin, I am still very very lost I have a few more schools to look at, homesteader will not work for him as they would put him in with second years and I don't think that will challenge him enough! and Beacon Heights does have a program but that would change his other in home programing and that is something that I really need to look at if that makes sense!
I am also looking at King Edward school as they deal with kids with Autism...which I know many have comments about but I believe there is a reason for every type of program, someones child may need this and it may be mine, I am going to go look at it next week
I also called our community elementary school, Overlanders, they lady seemed a little stressed when I talked to her, she just kept saying you need to talk to Jim who is the Asst. Principal....I am very scared to put him in a regular classroom, I am not sure how he would do he is still delayed on many levels, but advanced on many others

I am a parent that believes in letting my child become the best they are, I know we will fail at times, and that life is not always going to be easy but I am not sure I agree with the public system in sayin put them in a normal class and if they don't do well you can pull them out and put them some where else, is it not better to help them do there best and slowly move them into normal programs? just a ton going through my mind on all of this, as soon as this all gets settled a bit I will update the rest of my life!

our sensory room is getting better and better!

Anyone that knows us know that we will do anything to help our kids, and make sure there time in life is too the fullest, we have been having a hard time since moving over here bring them down more, they are just full of energy and full of life, our basement was just going to be a play room but now it has changed again too our sensory room to try and help them come down and relax and bit more and work on the deep pressure they need really to give them there sensory diet at home and anyone who knows about these type of kids knows it is soooooooooooooooooooo important so here are some pictures of our basment so far, it is very very far from what i see it totally being but I can't afford to do it all at once, there is a ton of money involed in these rooms, so as you saw in my last post here is Sara in the swing , David actually watch us play down there this morning and he was so shocked and the grabbering she was doing he was like this is what they mean about filling the sensory diet and I was like yep! it is awsome to me when he see's it all coming together and making it worth it! Today we also went and go a swimming pool to make our ball pit right now because we want to spend alot of money on making it but we just don't have it right now so this is what we did and let me tell you even David was loving it he even had to get back in later when we went down again!

To be a kids again!

this is pretty much the basment right now, looking at getting more of the mat pads to cover the set of the floor and we are going to put a screen around the ball bit so the balls aren't going every where and some different lights down there......and maybe some dog beds to play "hot dog" or hamburger and all those other squishing games :)

here is a video just for grandma :)

Sara.....to the dr.....

Today was her check up with the height and weight dr.....she was 20lbs and 12.8ozs at just over 18months old which puts her in the 10% on the charts which is better that the 4 or 5% she wasat better so things are going well and well as much as I am not worried, there is always a worry in the back of my mind about alot of things....and even time I go to the dr I get the normal questions of what does she eat, what type of milk and how much? and so on and then you get the question that brings many thoughts and opinons.....are all her needles up to date.....the answer for the first time no....and then I get the why? my comment today was I just feel for me that I need to wait till she is 2 to get the rest, as the important time frame is here, from 18 months to 2yrs old is when they normally see the autism, and as much as I see Sara being up to date and not the same as the boys, there is still a ton of worries, so for my own mind right now I need to wait and she what happens, I know Heavenly Father knows what I can handle but I don't need to jump off the cliff without my shoot either so I am just standing back on a few things with Sara...

Anyways here Sara is on her 18months birthday :) in our new swing downstairs

snow day

Well we are suppose to get a ton more snow tonight so when we got home I thought I would let the kids play outside so I could get some pictures of the before and after type snow.....the kids loved it, it is so fun to watch them play and enjoy being outside, I really really want it too warm up anytime now!
here is the link to the picture of tonight!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=40370&l=d88f9&id=589445629

Mommy Tag

I don't normally do these tags because 1. it takes time that I don't really have latley and 2. because I am lazy and 3. I sometimes don't want people to know the real me.....but my goal this year is too not hide who I am as much! We will see how it goes....

Typical time of wake-up: my alarm goes off at 6:30 and then I get out about 7:30 and try to get out in like 10mins to drive my husband and kids too school, beakfeast in a ziploc bag ain't it great!

On a good night when you/kids go to sleep: the kids go down about 7ish and if lucky go to sleep within the hour and then I stay up till about 11ish or later because it is my down time from my day but I am trying to get there earlier

How long you have been a momma: 4 yrs 7months (tommorrow)

How many times have you been a new mom: 3

How old were you when you became a mom (is this to personal?): 24

Favorite Kids show: Poko

Least Favorite Kids show: toopy and binoo, what is he?, and how about max and ruby where the heck are there parents?.....among many many others

Favorite chore: orgainzing, dishes

Least favorite chore: ironing and folding and putting away clothes.

Meal you cook most often: spaghetti, tacos, and meat sauce pasta

Kids favorite meal: Dallin-grilled chesse sandwich, Joshua- chicken nuggets, Sara--potatoes.....yes I do make many different meals some days!

5 things that make you smile when you are being a mom:
1. getting loves/cuddles from the kids
2. the joy of seeing my boys learning new words and loving to learn
3. Watching Sara tease her brothers, as mean as it is it just makes me laugh that she is so small and can make them so mad.
4. Watching Dallin draw, on sunday during Scarement he drew a train on a train track it was awsome, he is just so visual
5. hearing Joshua trying to sing a song, he doesn't have alot of the words but he is aleast trying to make it go together

Favorite thing your husband does with your kids: bath time and bed time, by that point I am normally emotionally done from my day

Last time you went out with no kids: last month some time to meet my sister in laws new "boy" Kevin! but let me tell you I do miss my every week time out....

If you could take your kids anywhere where would it be: DISNEYLAND!!! when they are older that is.
Favorite pastime/activity with kids: anything outside. pleeeease get here early spring!

1 thing you said you would never do when you were a mom: tell your kids they were slow!

If you had an afternoon to yourself what would you do? WOW this is a hard one, I would have to say SLEEP or go and look very slowly at the mall, but let me tell you I know this would be hard cause when I do go out with out kids I am always like I need to hurry because I feel like I am always needed and I can't have time off

1 thing you do that your mom did & now you do: forget to spend more time with my kids over keeping my house clean cause I am just cleaning a mess to clean a mess to clean a mess, I just need to learn to stop trying to clean always and enjoy my kids

Favorite quality of your own mom:.......wow I think this is a hard one, is that sad? I think my favortie quality would be the love and passion my mom had for the church when I was younger it has very much stuck with me, and even though she is not active and it is hard for me that passion and love for the church is there now as I teach my own childern

I would also have to say that my mother-in-law is amazing too she has been there to help us through many moments but without here I am sure things would be very different as she was a huge part of making David who he is, and as much as we have days he is amazing and does try very hard to help out with the kids which is a huge thing!

Favorite kids book: your not my monster

Best advice for a new mom: i better not be giving out any advice, i barely know what i am doing. maybe, whatever the problem is, they'll grow out of it, so don't stress the small stuff.( this was from Lindsay but I trully feel the same way), love the moments when they trully are there for you it changes so quick

Scariest or most heartbreaking moment as a mom: Well this is a load question! well lets start with one of the first and move on, as many know there has been ALOT in the last 2 yrs, I think the most scariest moment was seeing my baby in the NICU box, I had been told she(Sara) was doing good and because of having the c-section I was not able to check on here during the night after I given birth so it was the next morning before I saw her and when they wheeled me up too her I broke into tears as I thought something worse had happened over night, no one told me that was what they did with the babies in there! it was along couple days in there......And then my second would have been about 6 weeks later when I learned that Dallin had a severe language delay and some other world that I then later looked up on the intrent to find that it fit in the Autism spectrum which was had and then on the 20th of Dec that year learning that he was on the Spectrum, I would think to most you could see some of it but for me, I really didn't see it as there was just too much that had gone on in his poor life.....ummmmm okay I did 2 the third.....Joshua.......finding out that he was legally blind in one eye and that there was a reason in walked into walls when we went to places he did not know!

Most joyful moment as a mom: hearing I love for the first time from my kids

Last time your child told you they love you: before they went to bed

Last time you said I love you to your kid: before they went to bed

Joshua's eye check up

Today Joshua had to go back and see how his eyes were doing after patching it for the last couple months and the lady today said even though they said 6-8 hrs and we have only been able to keep it on for the 2/2.5hrs a day, she said his eye is doing much better so now we wait for july to see what the actual eye dr says and then we will go from there, I still have issues with it all espically because of the comment the eyes will just not work together the rest of his life, I think there has to be other options, so we will see where we go from all of this!

Dallin's field trip

Well today Dallin had a field trip to Save-on- foods the kids thought it was great and Dallin was loving the fact that both mommy and daddy went, it was too cold for David to work and we decided that we already had a babysitter planned we should stick to it, and I think it was good for David to come as we don't get him on many trips as he normally is working! and then we got back to the school at 11 and so we watched a movie in the classroom well we waited for Joshua to be done! I love watching Dallin in his classroom as he has change HUGE amounts since year when we started all of this