Happy 4th Birthday Joshua

Well to feed Joshua's life a little more I made him his dream come true cake.......it was alot harder than I thought it was going to be and I am learning a bit more about cakes so hopefully I get a bit better over time.

A day at the River with Kiddle's

This was a little family day with the kiddle's in the Okotoks river! the kids loved it, espically the

boogie board down the river! Got to love the days Dad comes to play because you can do cooler things.

Grab a tissue!!

I saw this on a blog I was reading and it really touched me. I just had to share it.

Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.

Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck and I will buy you one if he comes by.

Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.

Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.

Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.

Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.

Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.

Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the Mothers and Fathers who are searching for their missing children, the Mothers and Fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and Mothers and Fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't handle it anymore.

And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask Him for nothing, except one more day.............

Memories

I'm such a follower...I saw this on a few people's blog's and thought I'd try it out for myself.

Here's how it works:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew/know me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you (if you really don't want to play but still want to leave a comment, just leave a comment and then tell me that you would rather not play)

A new School Picked!

So those of you following my life! WE went to the New school today to see what it was like, the boys were instantly at home like it was there own school and they had been there before but still a little excitement from it being new.....As the main lady walked in Shpoia in it was like I had met this woman before we even both stopped cause we were both taken back it was very very strange and almost like I had been placed there before to talk with her, but I had never met this woman before. As we continue around it is feeling more and more like home to me and where I would want my kids and the most amazing this the get there Specialized Services through them too! AMAZING one less thing to worry about and if all goes right we could have a aid before the end of summer......I am happy it takes a huge stress off me.....

So on to the fact, that I know there will be some people that are sad that I did put Dallin into a Charter school for kids on the Spectrum, and not into a regular kindergarten, And I am sorry you are sad.....I trully do not feel he is ready yet, as I watch him play with kids his own age he just is not ready when on says something mean he will just walk away and not talk to them or anyone else and goes into shut down, I would rather slowly work on that, than have him hate school and not want to be there at all, a traditional school room is not always the right way, especially because he has many chances to be apart of the world in less harmful environments, yes we maybe helping them but at the same point that is the best part right now! And next year I will re look at things to see where we need to be.

But for now they both will attend: New Heights

ever done something so dumb you have to laugh

Ever done something really stupid and go oops should have remembered my brain.......

Well for those of you that missed our wonderful move......

we finishied in Edmonton at about 2am and then drove to Calgary.......

but we didn't get there till 7:30....and David had to start unloading with the guys at 11am so we wanted 2 real hours of sleep and our brains back but aparrently we forgot something......

so as time goes on I know we are missing things and can not find them anywhere, I have been to the storage unit and tore it apart and the basement of stuff that stay here but still missing......

Well we were in Edmonton for Capital Ex I said to David we should put stuff in the topper to give us more room and we opened the topper to find........................................

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hahahaha there is everything from our kitchen that was last min, important things!

Kinda of a dorky bad moment and most of it now must go in the garabage after being up in the sun for a month and a half!

Capital Ex's Magic Monday

These are a few picture from Capital Ex's

magic monday, which is a day for kids with special needs, where this is only a limited number of kids and no lights or music going, so that these kids don't get over stimulated as quick and for some the opportunity to get to do something like this as they have army guys/girls, eskimos, oil kings and the eskimos cheerleaders...so many people to help these kids, I love this day so much and so do the kids, they had a great day!Hopefully cause we are not in Edmonton we will still get to go next year.

this mascott tried going on every ride he was great fun!

Trip to Edmonton

So are doing a workshop all weekend we got ready to leave Calgary for Edmonton at about 5:30...The boys slept on the way up a bit and then when we got all checked in we went too the swimming pool, but the first thing Joshua said when we walk in the hotel room was WOW this is big! They had a good night sleep which was good as they played in the was water for almost 45mins!

Dallin and David coming out of the slide/under the water..........them coming out from the water!

Then Joshua was like it is my turn, DAvid tried fighting it a bit but he just got upset, so they went also!

Another school to go visit

We are off to visit a new school on Wed 23rd. I am excited, but at the same point not to sure what to think right now as it is a chartered school, i would be pulling them from the public world, with "normal" kids, now I know I do not lock my kids up from the rest of the world and one day I know they have to learn how to deal with the "real world" but is that today?
The nice part of this school is they do both compoments that the boys are needing the school part and the in home program, which right now is a HUGE thing. So wish me luck for Wed, I trully need a thumb on the head right now because I thought I had my answer for Joshua but now I am not sure again, I am not even sure why all the sundden I felt like I needed to call them so I am sure we will find out soon.

Anyways this was there about me on there main page:

New Heights Learning Services is a preschool, school and home program for chidren with Autism Spectrum Disorder and other developmental disorders.

Our program is specially designed to help children aged 2-18 that Alberta Education describes as “a child … whose physical, medical or neurological disability is so severe that s/he requires extensive personal assistance and modifications to the learning environment in order to benefit from schooling.” This includes children with autism and related disorders, including Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD). New Heights started operation in the fall of 1999.

What We Do:

Our school is a place where children can feel happy and secure while learning and growing. We focus on increasing each student's:
* sense of him/herself as a learner* independence and self-regulation* interest, respect and responsiveness to others* communication and social skills* fine, gross and sensory-motor skills* play skills* creative and critical thinking skills

We consider our program to be an "apprenticeship" for each child. With parental involvement and the support of our knowledgeable and skilled staff, your child will learn new skills and strategies to help him or her cope and learn in settings at home, at school and in the community. Our goal is to help your child learn independently and manage effectively in day-to-day situations.

A Mom to 7 kids! from July 15-18th

So I have been a mom to 7 kids for the last 4 days, it has had it's fun momnets and it very very trying momnets, momnets of tears and moments of laughter. I have been helping our dear friends Barb and Glenn well they have been in Edmonton working on a toy's r us job......When I said yes it was suppose to be 2 days which I thought of that is okay I can do this and it gives me a little bit of a change in life, it has been a change. my kids for the most part have been doing good they have times where they are done but alot of that is the differences, it has sadly made me open my eyes to how crule the world can be without trying. For the most part 5 yr olds don't try to hurt other kids feelings right? at least thats what I am going to tell myself. I am trying not to over think this too much because sadly this could ruin a deep friendship if I let it go to far and I have vowed that I am going to try to let it go and let me kids be a learning experience for our friends 5 yrs, he has many time outs for being mean, the first night we were here he asked we where they were born because they did not speak our language, or dinner he said the could not use a glass cup cause they were not special enough to use his stuff. and there has been many other things in the short time we have been here and this has been the hardest thing for me because I really hate kids being mean to my kids because they are not the same. They are the sweetest kids and very very easy going, but they do not deserve to feel like they are dumb and can't do anything. I appolgized many times for being mean to her son for rasing my voice and putting him in time outs but I trully think this is the only way he is going to learn that my boys are the best thing in the world and the love everyone till they hurt them. And right now I know my kids are being hurt and it hurts me so much, I have gone back and forth on what to do for school and this is making me think again, I was almost sure I was going to do public now I am back to second guessing myself, time to rethink things again! A new city, A new change I am not sure where we are going with life.
Any comments please feel free cause at this point I think I need that help.

trip to southcentre Mall

We went to south centre with aunty Tara....because David had taken the van I decided we would go on a bus ride and train ride for fun! so here is a few pictures from our fun they kids really enjoyed themselves

our bus ride.......

our train ride.....

our walk over to the mall.....

in the mall.....the ride and the esclator with Aunt the boys were loving it.

A Mom to 7 kids!

So I have been a mom to 7 kids for the last 4 days, it has had it's fun momnets and it very very trying momnets, momnets of tears and moments of laughter. I have been helping our dear friends Barb and Glenn well they have been in Edmonton working on a toy's r us job......When I said yes it was suppose to be 2 days which I thought of that is okay I can do this and it gives me a little bit of a change in life, it has been a change. my kids for the most part have been doing good they have times where they are done but alot of that is the differences, it has sadly made me open my eyes to how crule the world can be without trying. For the most part 5 yr olds don't try to hurt other kids feelings right? at least thats what I am going to tell myself. I am trying not to over think this too much because sadly this could ruin a deep friendship if I let it go to far and I have vowed that I am going to try to let it go and let me kids be a learning experience for our friends 5 yrs, he has many time outs for being mean, the first night we were here he asked we where they were born because they did not speak our language, or dinner he said the could not use a glass cup cause they were not special enough to use his stuff. and there has been many other things in the short time we have been here and this has been the hardest thing for me because I really hate kids being mean to my kids because they are not the same. They are the sweetest kids and very very easy going, but they do not deserve to feel like they are dumb and can't do anything. I appolgized many times for being mean to her son for rasing my voice and putting him in time outs but I trully think this is the only way he is going to learn that my boys are the best thing in the world and the love everyone till they hurt them.

Happy 5th Birthday Dallin

this year was a very very special year, I have been waiting for this day for a long time, it is the day that your kids are so excited for there birthday and every day they ask is it today? and you have to say no and there is almost a count down till that day! it is a amazing a wonderful feeling to know that he knows what he wants, and to be so passionate about it!
So Dallin's most fav thing as been pet shop for awhile now he started with it at Achieve and then it slowly moved into my house and then I feed it and it has been my house next to cars that is! But I love it cause those 2 things have changed my boys so much!

some here is the Cat he wanted and my version of the cat!

both Sara and Joshua wanted to touch it to feel it and it really bothered Dallin he thought he should be the only one but he did let them touch once!

Dallin's first time cutting the cake!

they all sort of played together for a few moments as this is something they are all starting to love!

My birthday note to Dallin:
My Dallin,
You are my hero, I love you so much! the strength you have amazes me everyday, life does not always come easy too you, but let me tell you, you do it with grace. There as has been alot of tears in the last 5 yrs for you, and I am sure there will still be many more. I love how much you have grown and become your own person, your personality is coming along very well. I am sorry this last year has been a crazy year of alot of change for you, alot of it has been hard for you but you have done great. I hope that I am granted a little more patience to see things your way as we go along, i know most days are hard part is not understanding each other and that is hard because some days we still speak 2 different languages especially when you are happy or sad, I have been told this gets better!
Dallin I love you and you will always be my hero, the hours of labour to have c-section is only half of what you have been through so far! keep up the good work and I hope you had a great birthday.