who knew 500 balls could be so fun!

okay really we already close to 500 balls in the ball pit, but now we add another 500 and a new pool as the last one broke after a year of use! the kids are totally loving it today which is nice, I love to see them so happy here is a few pictures of them!

part 5 Christmas Day! and 200 post!

All I can say is WOW this was a great moment, I did peek at a few of the kids, but David and I left our Christmas presents from the Santa totally untouch, and for those of you that know me a week with gifts with my name on it and not opening them was amazing!

The kids were super happy, everything was WOW mom look at this Santa totally is Awsome! and we made sure they knew that mommy and daddy could not have done this themselves, with tears our eyes we know that we have been taken careful to more then we expected. Everyone was so happy and excited with what they got!

I have tryed to take a pictured of the stuff we got from our Santa Claus

i will add more later ran out time before the next dinner

part 4 Christmas Eve!

It is kinda hard to see but this tree is filled full underneath, there is maybe 2 for each child under there from us, Santa and Heavenly Father made sure this was a GREAT year!

just left on our doorstep

these flowers are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing! they were just left on our doorstep monday night well no one was home, good thing they did not frezze! I have been trying to totally just enjoy them and stop thinking about who would have dropped these off as they are the most amazing flowers!

part 3 to our christmas story!

Part 1 to this story: http://themousirfamily.blogspot.com/2008/11/phone-call.html

Part 2 to this story: http://themousirfamily.blogspot.com/2008/12/blog-post.html

Part 3 to this story:

Today Was the day the dropped of the stuff for Christmas for our family, and both David and I stood in shocked, unsure what to think........they dropped of 7 large boxes for our family, at first we opened one box to see and they we wrapped presents! so we just left them siting in our door way for a few days unsure where to put all of this as if we put it under the tree we would have open stuff before Christmas morning, We did also look in our socks (yes they made socks too for everyone) they had envelopes with our names on them so in our moment of badness we opened them early to find gift cards to a few spots but the most important one was our gift cards to co-op!

to do or not to do?

to do or not to do, I have been thinking again about getting Sara's ears pierced I know people say it is better as a baby but has anyone done it when they are 2.5? she would cry for a minute and then I am sure she would love them as we got ready fro family pictures tonight she sat and watched me get ready and would not leave, and as David watched this he was like NO make up for her she is too young, and then she wanted to be like mommy with my boots so she put on boots that are really to small for her, it makes me laugh but at the same point my baby is growing up so much!

Stayed tune depending if I am good or not I could have the family photos back tomorrow or monday I am so excited, I am totally doing superstore again it was fun! just hope the pictures turn out just as good.

Family photos 2008

Classroom Photo's

These pictures made me laugh so much, Joshua's class is so busy I am suprised they got them all sitting there and the boy Joshua has his arm around is like his best friend, though he does love all his friends.
Dallin's class is another one that makes me laugh, with Dallin being the only one that smiles really this add more to the classroom picture.

the week before christmas

Well this week before christmas bishop and the Reilef Society pres asked us how are christmas was going to look and at this point I still had no idea because we had not heard back and so I told them both who was involed and that I would try finding out!

---the next morning we did find out that YES they had picked our family, with Aid's in my home I took a min in my room to say a small prayer of thank-you to my heavenly fahter for making our christmas better than we could imagin, even if we got help with dinner that would be great so we will see next week.

thoughts on my mind!

As I layed awake last night after having a late night conversation I wondered where this world is going, first we get to find out if there is anything wrong with our unborn child through ultrasounds, and then if we are not happy with the answer we can just say I am done with this one, now don't get me wrong there are many good reasons to find things out but at that same point are we allowing people to choose the things God thinks we need in this world. I do not agree with the numbers of 91-95% that abort a pregnancy after hearing that there baby might have Down syndrome it is really sad too me.
Or how many people ask my why I have had more kids after having one child with Autism, did you know most people don't find out about Autism till they are 2.5 or 3 yrs old well anyone that can do the math I had a 6 week old baby when I found out with out first, would that stop me from having another child if I felt that was the right thing, with my husband and the Lord NO! I would still have another child. There are many things out there that yes are hard to deal with but we are given the strength through prayer to deal with the problems that are faced in front of us. I know we must all make our own choices but I think we all need to step back and look at the advancements in the world and look at the facts that many people would take a chance on anything.
I have a friend that I miss dearly that is going through a rough time in Edmonton, she was so afraid to have another child after her 2 girls they were getting older, and she really was not to found of the newborn stage not that I would be either at this point, lack of sleep is hard on us all, after many ultrasounds they have learn that there little girl is a T18 baby which is super sad, because if this little baby does make it too birth there is not record of a long life. But listening to them on there blog, the faith the are showing is amazing, I hope I could be that good if the challenge was placed in front of me, they have been asked if they wanted to end the pregnancy and they have said no! That is a tone of faith right there.
But on the flip side when things don't go right we need to show a little more compassion, A girl I Visit taught in our last ward was 8 months pregnant and lost the baby as he had his cord wrapped around his neck, again this is a trial I thankful I have not be through as you would have to be strong and know Heavenly Fathers plan, and as I listened to someone say well she should be back at church and not hiding, I was angered because we don't know truly how this sister is doing, maybe she needs lot of love and people coming to see her, this would be a super tough thing to go through and I hope that family finds the peace they need in this time. I think we all need to be grateful for our trails but be willing to serve our heavenly father and help people who need that extra support and not question everything they do. We all have the spirit of understanding we just need to learn how to use it a little better.

I know things like that can be a tough subject but I think we truly need to be grateful for the things we have been given and thank the Lord everyday for the strength he has allowed us.

school photo's are here!

So school photos are here now we much choose which one we love! they are all great in my mind!

my boys are growing up so quick, I love that this guy was able to get the true personalities of the boys, I love to see there smile and to look in there eyes there is so much info in there eyes!

the reports of Sara's last visit

some days I think we all get tired of hearing the negative in life, today I got the report from Sara seeing the Glenrose a couple months back, I truly thought it went well, I truly thought she was soooooooooooooooo different from the boys and doing so well, I guess she is but not as well as what I think would be well.

Gross Motor skills are within a below average range for her age.
Visual reception skills fall within an average range for her age.
Fine motor skills are within a below average range for her age.
language comprehension falls within a below average for her age.
expressive language skills are within the very low range for her age.
communication skills fall within a moderately low range for her age.
daily living skills fall within a moderately low range for her age.
socialization skills fall with a moderately low range for her age.
motor skill fall with a moderately low range for her age.

Summary:
Sara is a quiet, mild-mannered girl who was most recently assessed at 25 months of age as part of the infant sibling study at the Glenrose Rehabilitation Hospital. During this assessment, Sara demonstrated some shared enjoyment with the examiners, and engaged in some spontaneous pretend play. developmentally, in areas of gross motor, fine motor and receptive language, Sara is preforming within a below average age range while her visual reception skills are similar to other toddlers of the same age. Sara's expressive language skill however, fall within a very low range for her age. Christine acknowledged that she does not feel Sara's language development has been progressing steadily and expressed an interest in specking Wendy Mitchell, a speech-language pathologist from the autism research center about possible speech and language services for Sara could qualify for. In general, Sara's performance is consistent with the parental reports given about her functioning at home and within the community. We look forward to continuing to monitor Sara's progress in these areas and are interested in having the opportunity to see her again at 30 months of age.

at this point I am totally not sure how to feel, I shed a few tears but I am sure there is more to come as really in my mind I thought she was doing well except for speech so this a bit of blow, not sure why I like to get news like this so close to Christmas, 3 years in row gets tough!

I love the snow!

Today as Joshua was sick for the second day we choose to stay home from church with the snow and the sick kids it is just not that much fun, and really as much as I don't want to admit it I am a little burnt out right now with all the stress so I have enjoyed staying in bed a little longer on the weekends to make up for the lack of sleep during the week, I need to learn how to go to bed a little earlier and leave somethings for tomorrow as the world will not come to a end if it is not done and the aids and therapists that come will not judge me if one day is cleaner than another! but that is something I need to learn more!

As a child I use to hate winter, and I am still not a total fan of it but let me tell you after 4 yrs in Edmonton where the snow comes and stays and it is SUPER cold alot of the time, I LOVE WINTER this year especially back in Calgary where is can be a high plus and a high low all in one day. But I think the best part is watching my kids as the love it so much, Dallin today was the hero in the snow as Joshua was sick and Sara was sleeping but I am trying to look at the same things and see the love and when you do that you can see so much.

Today he wanted to learn how to build a BIG snowman but David could not get the snow to stay together right and his response was go get the glue!

Dallin eating his snow cone.

Dr.Lever visit!

The follow up of med's went good, Joshua did amazing considering it was he 3 dr's apt in 3 days!

MRI follow up went well, the spot on his back they saw nothing and the head they said looked good so far too so just to follow up with the sleep clinic and the eye clinic, this poor child one day I hope things will slow down for him, I feel bad for him going through all of these tests.

ENT visit

Today was our ENT (ear nose and throat) visit it went great at first Joshua was like no way am I setting on the table but once I told the doctor that he had his MRI the day for he was like oh cool we can go look at things so Joshua got to look at his head which he thought was awsome!
so the answer was lets get the nose bleeds down and then we will look at the other options as he does have enlarged adenoids but he is not totally worried so we are just waiting to see!

Joshua's MRI

Today was Joshua's first MRI they want to look at his spin and they also want to look at the head to see if they could see anything going on there, as his back has a mark and with all the stuff going on the want to see if this would give any insite I/we really hope we can find somethings out.

this is the cool celing in the catifera at the childern's hospital

This is the sign I looked at for a very very long time, They said he did well but it took him a extra 30mins to wake up, so hopefully he does not have the same allergy I have!

this is the cow Joshua thought was cool so we took a picture on the way out of the hospital

this was joshua just before getting in the van he was still very very tired.

Tags....

5 places I've lived...
*New Market, Ont. where I was born :)
*Calgary
*Edmonton
I have gone back and forth from Calgary and Edmonton a couple times but these are the only places I have lived!

5 Snacks I Love...
*sweetish berries
*big turk chocolate bars
*pop
*fudge
*cheese cake

5 Jobs I've had...
*Wal-mart
*Naturalizer shoes
*Battery Plus
*Superstore
*Mommy

If I had a million dollars...
*new house
*new car
*savings
*TAKE A HOLIDAY, SOMEWHERE TROPICAL AND NOT KID FRIENDLY
*mission fund and retirement

5 Things I love...
*me time
*Sara's ability to make me slow down and learn again what is like to be a fun mom, who lets her kids bake
*Joshua's eagerness to please and to try most things
*Dallin's smile, and his ability to help me see him!
*David, that he has the ability to deal with me, and to teach me patience in all things especially with my not so clean house all the time he helps me cleans, serves the Lord and works to provide for his family (before his accident now he working to get the health to provide for us again)

OK the 5 real things I love, that make me ME,
*love making cakes.
*being organized--i was once really on top of this and now trying harder to get it back as it makes a happier me.
*fun nights--i love having people over just have a hard time inviting people over
*my house decorated for Christmas
*being needed

bake sale cakes

here is the 2 cakes i did for the bake sale at the school I think they turnned out pretty good, in the next couple weeks well I have some time I am going to try a few different styles with this little bear pan.

We all need a bear hug some days!

So I wanted to try this new pan I bought for the school bake fair, but it was still a little early to keep and not be stale so I called up a person that I would consider my second mom as she has always been there when I needed to talk or cry she is one of the first people in line to tell me how amazing I am even though I am like no I am not! I am learning to be a little more graceful and excepting to these comments but I have so pride to work with and some self confidence issues to work on there too, anywise I arrived mid afternoon to drop this off at Nancy's house and she was like no take it back to your kids and after saying no you need this, she said thank you today has been a rough day so it made it all that much better to be taking it too her home, everyone needs a little bit of cheer!

A special Thank-you to a special person.

I have had this on my mind for a few days of how to write a thank you to someone who doesn't even know the effect that they had on my life.
As some know and some don't that for about 5 yrs of my life I spent it not as a active member of the church, why will I am not sure that matters now, but the fact is that I need to be thankful for this person, without there effort with me as a youth and the most important time was me as a young adult, I spent many years not wanting to be apart at all and was in a situation where the people I was staying with were against the church very strongly to the point were I had to bring out my book of Mormon when they were sleeping, but that was okay because this person just dropped of letters in my mailbox each month as they were doing for there visiting teaching with the message, and I want to tell it wasn't the message on the front that hit me it was the message on the back, tell me they loved me for who I was and to remember this, now at that point I had just alot lost a child to a miscarriage and so the spirit was very close to my heart and all I could think was I wanted my children raised the way I was because as much as the people in the church can hurt us, to me the church is so true and I know that without a doubt especially now my life. but if it wasn't for that person that listened to the spirit I may not be where I am today and my life may have been very very different. I know that Visiting teaching is a true thing from God we all need a friend through these tough times in our lives.

where or who do we fall too?

When the weight of the world bears down so strong

You leave footprints on the street

And there's too many miles to face

without a few more hours sleep

The storm clouds overhead won't shed

Any rain to quench your thirst

I wanna be the one you reach for first

When your faith is stretched so think

that you can see straight through your soul

And you can't find a nickel to buy a simle

'Cause your pockets all got holes

You wanna shut the door and hide

Before the day can get much worse

I wanna be the one you reach for first

Fall into me

My Arms are open wide and you don't have to say a word

'Cause I already see

That it's hard and you're scared and you're tired and it hurts

And I wanna be the one you reach for first

I wanna be the bottle

You've been drinking with your eyes

or the road you run away on

Youv'e been running all your life

The third row pew that you last knew

As a child in church

I wanna be the one you reach for first

Fallin into me

My arms are open wide and you don't have to say a word

'Cause I already see

That it's hard and you're scared and you're tired and it hurts

And I wanna be the one you reach for first

Before your turn the key

Before you fall asleep

Before your drift away to fight those demons

waiting for you in your dreams

Before your arms are stretched wide open

Before you're reaching for the sky

Before you're searching for direction

And all the answers to your why's

Fallin into me

Well, my arms are streched wide open, you don't have to say a word

Because I already see

That it's hard and you're scared and you're tired and I know it hurts

Yes, it's hard and you're scared and you're tired and it hurts

And I wanna be the one you reach for first

This song has just made me think alot, there is has been alot of times in this last bit that I have felt like I am being danggled from the edge of the clift and that one more thing would send me over the edge, I joke about going back to some of my old ways from years ago when it at that point it seemed to make things easier, but I know that would not solve anything, I know there trully is only one person to turn to and say I have had enough you I need help, I know that but does it always make it easier NO. I know that it seems like I only vent about life and how bad it is in my latley but this is a vent that needs to be had for ME because I am keeping alot of what I am going through inside and alot of this is just half what I am trully feeling because I don't want to upset people and make people think that I can't handle my own life, I can and I will it will just take some tears and some prayers from me and many others on my behalf, because it does take a viallge to make life work sometimes!

the lyric are from Sugarland

Album: love on the inside

song: fall into me

the phone call!

Today we received a phone call, asking how we were doing, as I said great this great sister/friend (from Wildwood ward when we were in here in Calgary before we moved to Edmonton) said I want to place your families name on the Adopt a family through my work......I paused for a moment and asked how she heard what was going on, as I had not seen her in almost 4 yrs and she said another sister had told her what was going on with David's accident and this was why she want to add our family with tears I was like that would be wonderful, she said this did not guarantee they picked our name but it was worth a try I said we would be grateful and honored just with you thinking of our family. And was left like this, we filled out the papers and sent them right back for her.

Santa really does come to Canada!

there is a first for everything right?

well tonight we got to see our first 2 reindeer ever, we were in Okotoks for the light up the town and this is what we saw well among other things but this my first and my kids looked at me strange and said they are strange. ummmm guess I have some more teaching to do before next year!

having a hard time sharing......

I have to say yes I love having the inhome services for the boys but somedays, it is just super hard to share my home, my life, my space with some people everyday. There are different ways of living different standards of living, I might not be a total perfect Mormon in all ways but somedays my head just never stops spinning from the smell of smoke from one day to another but my next problem is I am too nice to actually say anything to this girl like hey could you tone down your smoking before you come to my house, like how do you say that without by rude.

I also just want some me time, I know every mom wants this but I am so frustrated I took on this job at superstore as a break away from my life and now I so want it to end so I can sleep but with David being on WCB we need me working and it is just to much for me right now I never feel like I have a moment for me, I need to go to the doctor to see why I am tired all the time and not feeling well, but when do I have time NEVER because to go to a walk in you need more than a couple hrs and I really really don't know where to find that! I can't even leave my house for 5 mins with the aids here in the morning and then I drive the kids to school and I only have 2hrs there and then I need to pick them up and on some days it is back and forth between David and them with his therapy and then on to dinner and 2 nights a week I work and the other nights there always seems to be something or I am too tired to want to sit and be poked by someone I really don't know, I know I full of reasons or really full of excuses to my crazy life and sometimes I just need to vent and cry to myself and be alittle self centred because that is how I feel. I want to be happier and I thought being back on our own routines would get better I would deal with my life better but so far that has not been the case. maybe one day it will be once I get everything back to some what normal but who knows when that will be as David is not doing so well with his 4 hrs of therapy this week so we will see what they do yesterday was his first day of 4 hrs and he looked like crap and today he was still moving slow so when he went today I said make sure they know so I am not sure what the plan will become yet. Today is the lets look at the glass as it half empty vs the half full........

Dallin lost his first........

TOOTH

I was totally shocked, he did not compain at all about being lose or even fallin out, we didn't hear him for a bit so david went in his room to see what he was doing and david could tell he was looking for something, and so david was like what are you looking for my tooth, I need to put it on my pillow for the tooth fariy, if david had not gone in there then we would never have know and he would have been one sad child, he got .50cents for it and he was so excited.

PHL last party.

this is picture of them all before they went home, 2 have stayed for the winter and will be over alot more, but next year there will be 14 coming over!

Well as many know this year was alittle different, after 3 season with Classic Landscape in Edmonton we switched to Peter Huges Landscape in Calgary many reasons behind it but the general idea is Calgary is where we needed to be, our first part was a little bit of a shock as well it was not a mormon party at all, and the wine and beer was to say in higher demand then the pop went home and said not sure how this year is going to be. Let me tell you before this accident david had this was the BEST year we have ever had, I have never felt so special as a wife and as a person by people david has worked with. I did do a few birthday cakes for some of the guys I got to know more but I thought as a going back home present I would make them a cake, and let me tell you when they all saw it at first I was the greatest person in the world, it made me feel great.

As the night went on they started playing with the cake, as this is trully the italian flag without the middle part and so then they laied down the middle part to make it the true flag and then just before the cut it up the stood the flag up to have some fun.

I am so glad that they enjoyed it, I will miss the time they are gone and hope to get to know them a little better next year

Sensory fun for the day!

how much sensory fun can you have with shaving cream, apparently a lot, I personally was a little ummmm disturbed by the mess and the smell just as much as Joshua was he really really hates getting dirty or things on his hands and our OT Emma drove his McQueen car in the shaving cream to get him to touch it and as he was almost crying he cleaned his car off and touched it but he was not happy with Emma that day.

Dallin on the other hand was loving this activity once he got into it, it was alot to get him there as he as well wanted to wash his hands right away but he did stay and play for a good 20mins. Way to go Dallin!

A Great Day

So I would love to say that life has been a walk in the park lately and that I have been the happiest person in the world, but that would be a total lie.....as I made a comment yesterday to one of the ladies at church I said it was going to be a great week, I really meant it with a HUGE amount of sarcasm, and these 2 ladies we like I wish I could have her attitude as she has more going on in her life then we do, and i felt like oops I should have told them I meant different, but later it made me think as we went out to Barb and Glenn's that I needed to take this on this week, I need to make this a great week! there is alot going on but yet there is so little compared to other people it truly is perspectives, your day will only be as great as you allow it. there is a ton of positive going on, David went to the gym 3 days last week and on to day 1 of this week but did great last week he has even stopped taking his perscripton advial and is just down to the store level and that was just one the weekend when we did too much for him. but he also drove this weekend and he drove to therapy today, this morning I woke up early to go to therapy at the school, and I was actually somewhat happy to be up in the morning not as go go as others but I was not as dead as I could be. The boys are doing awesome in therapy and they are doing the most amazing I have ever seen them in primary and it is such a blessing for me, I know more than ever that Heavenly Father hand picked this house out for us, the blessings that keep pouring down on our live is amazing. David would probably roll over laughing if he read this because I have been that miserable to him lately, but I am trying it has been a hard thing to have him home and not at work making normal money, but also to have him home and not being able to do as much and being so tired, it is hard to let someone have a nap even if they really need it when you yourself are not able too and really really are needing that nap to if that makes sense. sometimes I have felt like I had 4 kids with everything going on and now that he has made some steps forward this has helped me alot. I know there are always going to be things in front of our views that we think is the hardest thing that Heavenly Father has given us but let me tell you never wish for more, be grateful for what you have and count those blessings.

halloween was fun

Happy Halloween I made this for the Kiddle Family.....

this year we had the school party in the afternoon and then we headed to grandma and grandpa mousir's and then to home to get some things and then to grandma and Chariles place and then we went to okotoks to go door to door with the kiddle kids, all the kids had fun! it was great to see how they are starting to get strange holidays of asking strangers for candy who really thought this was a good idea. Anyways, here are a few pictures...

swing lion, mr. Dallin

snack time in mr.monkey aka Joshua's class.

Dallin in the bat cave.

the class prade through the school, sara thought it was great.

the new house pictures

I wish I could say that I could do more but you know what I am not sure I could right now I am feeling a little topped out! With this move almost all by myself it took alot out of me, I did have some dear friends really help but sometimes it just feels like there is not enough of you when it comes right down to it because you always or I always want to do it my way (no issues there put there is some organizing issues I want to get worked out in my life) So I have taken a few pictures of the house so those that have not come to see yet is able to see where we are hope you enjoy!

The kids rooms are pretty cool little sara has a huge room to herself and the boys are sharing but the bunkbeds have helped the room issue. now it is not just beds! And Dallin loves the Top!

My Bedroom, still a few things I want here but I am loving my new bedding!

My kitchen
I love my new kitchen well for the most part I am not fond of the flat top stove but what do ya do when you do buy it, but I do LOVE my new kitchen table chairs are to come!

My Bathroom, or wait the 1 bathroom but it has a amazing jet tub to it!

My living room can you tell which way the sun comes in, in the afternoon? the picture is my new one for my "big" pink I mean samon wall!

My new Basement there is still stuff I want to do but getting closer to my real goal in life, the trampoline is in with the swing but very much becoming my therapy room! or rooms!

update on David

for those actually following our life I just wanted to let you know that David went to a office for WCB that deals with the "brain" side of things to see what they thought! All good, many many emotions this day for me as this played a huge thing in my life, will he ever get to go back to work or not is there damage that is not going to change, many of those things none of us ever want to think about I have spent many hours pleading to my Heavenly Father to let this be okay, and it is going to be but there is still a long road a head which we both knew as he received a blessing after the accident and in it, it said he will return to full health but it was going to be a long road a head.......so here is the report we got from this clinic
he has a Traumatic Brain injury or a severe concussion, he will be off work full time for almost 3 months! He has 2 more weeks of and then he will start little duties for 2 hrs a day and then he will work 4hrs and then 6hrs and then 8hrs........to slowly work him back up to normal!
So all and all Heavenly Father is taking care of us, just his time and our time are not always the same thing

the new place

This is the new house I will take some picture once we move in but we don't move in till the 15th ish so here is the outside for now, we are excited to have place of our own to call home for a bit!And it is close enough for David to walk once he is back to work!

The Front of the new place, not the best but you get the idea

Different views of the back yard, it is going to be soo fun to play outside in the back yard!

This is show how long our back yard is! it starts at the lighter fence and goes all the way down to the garage